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i can't believe you can pissed about that its not like i've been asking every other day for like the last 2 months i just need for that one day, sorry that i didn't know that it will clash with your dates but like i would have known. i understand where you are coming from but you didn't have to give me that attitude. crazy.
arts camp arts camp arts camp arts camp 3rd camp for me and it was a blast. though it was a pity i didn't get to stay on the whole time and i didn't come for the last day (which the story is pretty interesting why i did not) but i still had loads of fun and though our og was shrinking in size and by the last night we had like 10 freshies WE HAD AN ENTHU SMALL OG its not about quantity, its about QUALITY. teeheeeee. reading teck's and alvin's notes on fb and all the random comments made me think back about last year's arts camp when i was a freshie. like what teck felt, i felt like backing out last minute and not being able to be same og with my friend at first was abit dreadful not knowing anyone not knowing what we would be doing, how the people would be like its quite frightening i still remember on the first day everyone was playing some weird game at the hall together (ice-breakers) when 2 guys came late with damn black faces. AHAHA. then as the days passed, we got to know each other more and more to spend 24 hours with each other every day for like 5 nights is like crash course on learning each other's characters and personalities. there were people whom i talked less to but ended up closer to in the end and i thank arts camp for that because i believe they are the people i will still be talking to at the end of my nus days. to have only 2-3 hours of sleep every night and still be able to smile, laugh, shout, cheer the next day really makes uni life so some easier to swallow.
watching so many drama shows are influencing my view of love and life till i'm never satisfied with what i have trying to make my life as exciting as those storyline written by the imagination is almost impossible but i just keep trying and let those small things in my life go unnoticed and taken for granted.
no michele, don't.
don't know if i did the right thing maybe there's no wrong no right its just how i want it to be but since i had to make a decision and i chose to follow this road though rocky but it may lead to a better destination i had better pull up my socks and get my engine started.
mixed comments about it don't know whether to love it or hate it.
i quit my job which means i have more time but less money ): anyone got events need helpers, call me!! taiwan soon! yayyyy. can't wait. a break from thinking everyday in singapore AND SHOPPING! my fav. anyways, just watched this jap drama called zettai kareshi or absolute boyfriend. if you don't mind jap dramas you should watch this one. its good (:
don't know why i always do this to myself i always think i have time and end of piling loads of work on myself to only find out that i can't cope when it comes. its not that i can't cope now or not having enough sleeping with the current workload but i feel that its a holiday and school's gonna start real soon (as usual) plus work is so boring that it becomes a chore and i wish my boss would think i'm incompetent and fire me cause i don't really want to be irresponsible and quit like after doing 3 days of work. why did i even take up this job HAHA ask me again and i still don't know the answer i think i'm suited for some FnB line can't find any other jobs that i'm having fun while doing it. oh wells that's my life for the holidays
taa; love honghong says: i must know who im going with michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: you definitely know who you are going with taa; love honghong says: still i need to know the name michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: michelle taa; love honghong says: of all the ppl going out michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: ya michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: huh? taa; love honghong says: who is michelle michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: someone you know? taa; love honghong says: no i dont michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: yes you do michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: trust me taa; love honghong says: cannot taa; love honghong says: scared michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: errrrr michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: i think you punch her she will squeeze your nehneh back? michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: i don't know michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: just come out firstttt taa; love honghong says: leong yuanshan michele [my-enigma.blogspot] says: AHAHAHAH taa; love honghong says: i scared just one line and can tell that its yuanshan it says something...
done done done so glad its over, sad that i didn't put in as much effort as i could have. i don't want to see the results. hope the holidays go well happy holidays everyone.
明日は日本語の試験があります。 ことし、いちがつからしがつまでにほんごを習いました。 きょ、私はうちで勉強します。ここれんしゅうします。 大変ですね。 でも明日の試験が一番好きですよ！ そして、試験は明日に終わりました。 私の日本語は上手じゃありませんですから、 明日の試験が大変です。
three down three more to do, tomorrow's the fourth. ele said: "i'm craving for sour cream and onion. i said: "i'm craving for monday.
today didn't go as well as i wanted it to. first it was a damn bloody hot day, i was sweating and sweating in a BLACK POLO TEE then my sis had to take the car home so i had to take a bus home and the paper wasn't looking good for me depending on the bell curve as usual not doing my best for the next paper in the last 4 hours or so i wished i love studying. what a practical wish for once. on the brighter side, i'm done with 3 all be over by next monday and i can not think about books till august. though i prolly have much more things to think about anyways, if anyone needs a part timer, so as long the pay's not below 5 any recommendations? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i'm not going to lie, i was pissed but i hope it didn't change anything cause i'm not going to stay pissed forever, that would be stupid and childish.
i can't imagine how you can be that inconsiderate and not know it. you can expect me go with you two only i mean i don't mind going with you two but can at least find one more person for me anyone, i'm not even picky la. i'm not pissed that you called him along but that you even said that its ok that only we 3 go i'm already trying my best to find one more to go but if it ends up no one wants to go i don't know how man this sucks.
driving home with a stomache is a traumatising experience just hope i don't get caught by a speed cam! ):
while reading an article about married maids in singapore, "how do you feel rocking your employer's baby to sleep, dreaming about the little boy or girl you left behind in the Philippines?"
returning after 2 years, watching them all get nervous watching them all put on make up fretting over whether they look good thinking about their routines over and over again and all i can do is just be at the corner being really jealous. i remember those days its still so vivid yet so far away wished i could turn back time. anyways, CONGRATS TO CJGYM'09!!! you guys did a damn good job. (: 2nd for team with so many individual medals. WOOTS! love you guys. hope you enjoyed yourselves.
everytime i think about having only 3 months left my mind thinks of all sorts of things to do.
have you ever wondered, how one estate has so many families, so many people how one of them may be someone you knew or someone who you will know in the future someone who you may be very close to in the future those faces we walk pass every morning, those people we often see lingering near our houses its queer how we never say hello, never get to know each other though we remember their faces better then some other acquaintance.
why do people cry for love when its the only thing that has infinite supply in this world.
my impression is sure changing, for the better. like in a game, the rules change, the game play has also changed
almost forgot about school after slacking on mon, tue and wed. i temporarily put all my school work aside my mind was all on the stage our months and months of hardwork was over in an hour but that hour was good. we had fullhouse and a waiting list. (: but it means back to work, which is kinda depressing. and i hate it how you put me down again and again.
dragging and dragging my feet down the tunnel i can see the light right at the very end its like a spot, a dot, too tiny to expect for anything yet its something that causes me to hope for more so i walk and walk down the long, wet, dirty tunnel sweeping the dirty water off my sleeve when it drips from the top walking more slowly and slowly, losing concentration losing determination to continue knees weakening as i take an additional step forward. unexpectedly, my leg thrust itself into a crack in the flooring my knee hits the murky water and dig into the mud my other leg drags forward and with all my might try to pull the other out instead, my body swings forward with momentum and my palm smacks right onto the mud stopping my fall even more slow then ever i tug my knee out, followed by my feet, my dirtied soles and finally my filthy hands straining my back muscles to stand upright i put one foot forward staring at the light, breathing deep, and then continue my dragging.
have you ever felt like you disappointed your parents, like you didn't do your best you could have done something better but you didn't probably blaming yourself for not working hard for not thinking sensibly when you are already all grown up, or at least you thought you were. or maybe you felt that you didn't want to let them down, you wanted to show them only your good side, to find out that you didn't and regretted your actions or behavior in the end. possibly took many things for granted. or maybe you felt that you had too many things on hand wished you didn't act tough in the beginning wished you were smarter, a genius wished you were more hardworking wished you had more determination i wished and wished and wished, am still wishing, think i'll wish forever... just having too many bad days in a single week. i'm not as strong as people think i am.
today's a really bad one for me first i woke up at 12, my lesson was at 12. then i decided that since i'll be too late for lesson, i wanted to go the doc at yih because my cough is still around after 1 week plus plus. and on the way get an mc when i reached the uhwc, it says "WE ARE CLOSED" due to relocation. on top of that i wanted to book my condo's function room before leaving house but because i was going to the doctor that was being relocated, i did not book it! and i was super early for my 2 o'clock lesson @)(#*OI_@)$(IOQLAJSKG!OUQP:LKD i hate today.
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the moment we obtain happiness we would always be afraid of losing it - this is an ordinary reaction. but when this happens, it shows that one is truly happy.
i'm afraid i'm falling into the same trap as i did last sem everytime after the midsem break i become restless, no motivation to study if this continues... oh wells. work is piling up, don't remember one day when i didn't think of the work i have to do. now i understand what the singapore rat race really means. maybe i didn't JUST know, but it feels like its getting worse. but i guess i can't complain, i chose this path, this is what i wanted to do, so stick with it. today in soci of deviance, the lecturer said this... "if love was a crime, i would rather be the prisoner in your heart"
ahhhhh. i'm starting to procrastinate on FIRST DAY of recess break. THAT'S GREAT. i wanted to pull my cap up with this kind of speed i think i can continue dreaming. i need someone to pull me out to study ANYONE WHO WANTS TO STUDY CALL ME!
its a rather depressing thought to feel helpless to know that i'm prolly not much of a use or more of a bother anyways. sighhh. sometimes i feel like a LL don't understand why everyone just wants to seek approval from another, including me.
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author Michele Escape Anthea all these while...
May 2009 tell me
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