Thursday, July 27, 2006
being afraid... or paranoid?


i'm really afraid
that i can't take up such a big responsibility of being a leader
i have never experience being the one in charge
being the one who has the power to command others
i'm afraid because of this
i'll become too bossy and stuff
i think to command is easier than earning respect.
hopefully
things will turn out alright...
enough of this topic
it will turn out alright =)

i really love it how we gymmers can get things done to fast!
its not easy to create a tao when we are not perfect ourselves
and we did it again and again
being a gymmer makes me feel really proud!
although trainings are really intense at times
and they are pretty time consuming and tiring
i'm always happy to be at trainings =)
though there are times i would whine about how aching i am
and how tired i am
but i'll still go through the trainings with all i have
with the best i can give.

anyways
i just realised its been a really long time since i've played mahjong
haha
i used to play quite often
somehow...
yea... i sort of gradually stopped playing.
*sigh

there's nothing i can do but smile now.

Divulged at 10:57 PM