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i'm beginning to lose faith in myself in what i can do in where i would stand in the future in what i can achieve i'm not good at anything i have no talent in any specific jobs i'm screwing up everything i have by trying to cramp them all up together there's no turning back there's no one that can rescue me in my damn situation omg. i'm an emo kid. maybe my future was plan to lie somewhere else where i don't want it to or maybe i'm just trying to damn hard.
driving out of the circuit for the first time is pretty stressful imagine that its only the third time you've been holding on to that steering wheel and now you've got to like avoid crazy taxi drivers and illegal parkings along bends and risk crashing. ok. not exactly. but that was how i felt. i don't exactly hate working but i don't like it that much either. so work more or less is better? afterall, i am having my holidays i need to learn how to trust.
work's pretty heavy this week tired but i don't regret holding on to two jobs sometimes i'd rather be super busy but at least i know i'm make the fullest out of life better than being idle and lazing around, being unable to accomplish much. i like my life the way it is :) i hate how time kinda always puts the old down and brings in the new the older things may never be picked up again and the new will just become one of the old this persistent hobby of mine - missing the past - never goes away. makes me rather hesistant in moving forward in life. p.s. please take one step at a time. 春暖的花香带走冬天的气寒 微风吹来意外的爱情
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |