Thursday, November 27, 2008



i'm almost there
almost.
today's the worst of it
take a breath and then soon it'll be over.
HURRRYYYYY
can't wait anymore. darn.

Divulged at 2:02 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008
i want to take 3 steps, no 10 steps, backwards.


my foot got stuck in the gaps through the journey.
my toes hurt from being squashed
and my arms tired from reaching forward
but still unable to grab hold of anything that can pull me out.
everything that i attempt to hold on to
slides off my fingers and the most i can do just scrape off abit of it.
those bits get stuck in my nails,
easy to get rid of and nothing nice about them.
when i try to pull my foot out, it doesn't want to,
but eventually i did
and all i got out of it was deep scratches on my foot
leaving a blood trail behind me as i stumble forward.
when i see the finishing line,
thinking that i've found something better than my fate before
to only find that my foot is stuck once again in that same crack.


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always looking back
finding something that's comparable now
regret, what should have been done, what was missing
holding on to the emotions then
instead of living in the moment.


My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me

Divulged at 5:52 PM

Sunday, November 23, 2008
one down four to go


yesterday's philo paper was... hmmm. can't find a word to describe it.
its like how you feel like you don't really know if you will do well or not
i think my answers are right(duh. if not why i'll put them down right) but in the end i barely pass.
oh wells. i'll just have to wait and see.

if tmr's my 2nd paper, it means after tmr, i only have 3 more papers!
which actually sounds quite fast.

can't wait (:


oh. and facebook has this "buy your friend" application.
sounds great huh. that we are being sold around.

Divulged at 7:29 PM

Friday, November 21, 2008
PH1101E


everything sounds so weird
hope they are not hiding everything from me or anything
maybe its just my over suspicious fried brain from studying philo
and tomorrow's my first paper, hope it goes well!

Divulged at 9:57 PM

Thursday, November 20, 2008
knowing you knowing me


all the talk about gym
thinkingfindingaboutsomethingittobutfillknowingtheitsgapover?
oh wells.

Divulged at 11:47 PM

(:


i like reading all the facebook comments
makes me feel like i'm back in jc
funnn!

ok. my exams are starting in less than 48 hours.
that's damn fast.
but the faster the better also cause its means that it ends faster and can play earlier!
can't wait
to like go out with friends, go shopping, go watch movies everyday
just slack ard talk cock.
miss those times.
DARN! HURRY BE OVER WITH IT.

Divulged at 1:35 PM

Tuesday, November 18, 2008
MagMyPic


heehee (:

Divulged at 7:53 PM

i remember


this new video i made while exploring imovie on my mac (:
there's one version on facebook which is clearer and better without some gray screen in the beginning.
so those who are my friends on facebook, watch it there!
love gym, truely.

Divulged at 4:39 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008
so i put my arms around you.


AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL CYCLE 11 EPISODE 12 HAS MY BOOKSHELF IN IT! (:


was just watching so you think you can dance on youtube
when i watched one contemporary dance of kameron and lacey
and i liked the song
and its really not bad

Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears'
cause it's all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather

So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I'll be leaving soon

-dancing by Elisa.
its a sad song, but somehow feel i don't believe in it which makes me even more depressed.

Divulged at 12:55 AM

Friday, November 14, 2008
will i ever forget? sighhh.


ok.
the more i look at my blog
the more i like it (:

this picture brings back alot alot of memories i guess
makes me happy seeing this picture every time i open my blog
wonder when i'll ever put them down
don't think i'll ever. hee hee

Divulged at 10:05 PM

NEWWWWW


decided to change the layout
pls comment if its ok?

oh ya. and if anyone has objections to the picture, tell me.
ahaha.

Divulged at 2:45 AM

Monday, November 10, 2008



this is a must watch!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=muLIPWjks_M

Divulged at 6:39 PM

Mariah Carey - Bye Bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show it
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye...

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye...

Divulged at 12:43 PM

Friday, November 07, 2008
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i was so mean, i know
maybe it just wasn't the right day
or maybe its just boiling inside of me for a long time.
it bothers me to know i can be so darn mean with my words.

should i have said it?
whatever's done is done.

Divulged at 9:51 AM

Tuesday, November 04, 2008
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rahhhh
i'm damn pissed #@(*&#(&^$*#^
first my phone spoilt, nevermind.
then i went all the way to tpy to repair my phone, nevermind.
then i went back there to collect today, they simply told me "sorry, forgot to tell you today is the technician birthday, can you come back tomorrow?"
THAT'S GREAT.
i went ALL THE WAY DOWN to hear them say that
thanks.

Divulged at 5:36 PM

Saturday, November 01, 2008
take 3 steps back and i ponder


i miss those times we had
so much so that it makes me cry when i think about the things we used to do
nothing else could ever replace those feelings we had together
everyong has walked forwards but i hope all of our hearts look back once in a while, like how mine does.

my heart misses it so much so that...
everything i watch a show with a glorifying moment, when people work hard to achieve what they want, it reminds me of our past, and i'll feel all sour inside.
everytime i look at the photos we took together, i wished it never ended.
i wonder whether i can ever stop finding another moment like that.
i never get sick of talking about those times.


its one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do


i <3 gym
i <3 the times we had
i <3 those smiles
i <3 our friendship
i <3 cjgym

Divulged at 10:06 PM