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behind every child is an aging couple behind this ageing couple is a young woman and a man. between this young woman and man there's a love story. in this world of billions there's billions of love stories and in every one of them is an emotional story a story which will always be only between two a story of tough times and of joy a story that brings out the happiness in everyone its the heartwarming story of love of how they are willing to sacrifice for each other always being there for each other till the day they die. everytime i see an old couple holding hands supporting each other helping each other across the road slowly they walk along the pavement even when everything is going so fast the cars, the children... the couple seems to be lost in their own world a world of peace and tranquility following their own time having no care for anything else. it melts my heart imagining the things they have gone through the years they have loved each other. where's my love story?
tomorrow is a long and dreary day till 5 don't know how i'm going to survive through those hours i'm begining to lose strength. just finished tuition xiaoting was on the verge of sleeping and was scolded by gerard! he's getting more and more feirce nowadays! hahaha. no la its quite hard to imagine him being feirce. but that's because i'm *ahem* hardworking *ahem* that's why he don't scold me. wahahaha. joking la. xiaoting, i know you've been pretty hardworking. at least i can tell you are trying la. =) we'll pull through this together no probs man. this year is about to come to an end. and i've got to get through this one to get to the next year its not that difficult, but its definately not that easy as well. hopefully whom i know can get through this smoothly. i'm looking foward to next year another year of fun but also the final year of stress. maybe uni has its own stress. oh well just can't wait for this stage to be over. at the same time there are many things in jc i don't want to let go i don't want to leave. but i know i must, and i will.
xiaoting and amos came over supposedly to study ended up watching alot of shows though we studied a little in between but then we fell sleep for a few minutes then we went to catch fish! omg there's a damn big fish in my tank and its disgusting la! xiaoting even took a video of the fish -_-" after that we cooked dinner the menu states pasta. it was quite successful we finished every bit of it =) then we watched reign of fire on tv. didn't exactly get the story hahah. after that we switched channels and watched hero we were like talking throughout the whole movie talking while enjoying the graphics of the movie. hahaha. that covers about the whole day alr. i'd better sleep early today dreading school tomorrow aww man... nights everyone. i'm starting to have monday blues alr.
my eyes wide open yet i see no light scene after the scene images collide just ahead of my vision they flash by my mind lies and my heart denies. unable to accept and refuse to forget turning around i begin to lose track of matters of time of love lost in my own suburb. eyes shut tight, a bright light shines right to the core in one straight line prying open thoughts and emotions relentless and persistent, it burns. momentum spills it all over painfully i wash down the gutter filled, an unsightly amassment leaving its source empty and broken.
woke up pretty early today at like about 10 then went to ikea for lunch went home to change then went out to study at cine with xiaoting. studied for like 2 plus hours on integration i still don't know how to do a few quesions and got stuck at them that's why i took so long. i'm beginning to dislike integration can't believe how easy secondary school mathematics is. we couldn't take it anymore then went kbox and sang. i sang hui jia... omg. i think the glass almost broke. really exhausted from the lack of sleep then went shopping! i bought a new pair of heel =) can't wait to wear it. then we came to my house tired to study somemore and i realised that when i'm really tired i get SEVERE mood swings. i got stuck at like several qns and i'm damn pissed. decided to change subject. not long after we realised we are really too exhausted to do anymore and xt left for home alr. she's coming back tomorrow to study i guess. she left all her stuff here. haha. so means sher HAS to come tomorrow at least to get her stuff. i'm in need of something to lean on.
today again we were standing shivering behind the curtains hearts beating as one minds towards the same goal. everytime when one things is here i can't believe its here when that things is finally over i can't believe that it is and what overwhelms me is this wave of melancholy. i don't know what went wrong and i apologise for my mistakes if there were any we have come such a long way together if there's anything, i'm always here. if i'm the cause of it, pardon me. after the performance we had photo taking then went to scotts to eat lunch went with all the gymmers. then we all headed to my house today i had tuition when gerard came they were still at my place it was quite fun cause we sort of played around awhile then went back to studies. xt was catching fishes in my tank then gerard demanded her to get back to table to do her work hahaha. i finally learned integration feels accomplishing. my house was pretty rowdy today if only...
I waited for you today But you didn't show No no no I needed you today So where did you go? You told me to call Said you'd be there And though I haven't seen You Are you still there? I cried out with no reply And I can't feel You by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here, and I'm never alone And though I cannot see You And I can't explain why Such a deep, deep reassurance You've placed in my life We cannot separate 'Cause You're part of me And though You're invisible I'll trust the unseen I cried out with no reply And I can't feel You by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here, and I'm never alone We cannot separate 'Cause You're part of me And though You're invisible I'll trust the unseen I cried out with no reply And I can't feel You by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here, and I'm never alone.
eat.sleep.study.eat.training.study.sleep. besides these there's nothing else probably slacking once in awhile but that's the end of it all. guess i'll just have to bear with it its going to end in one month but even after that... oh wells that'll come later. tomorrow another day of the anxiety another time of the fear and emotions but it's also another moment of smiles, laughter and fun. standing at the stage all over again although its our don't-know-how many times on that stage still we feel it we feel the atmosphere then tense emotions running through all of us. i can't believe its one of the last times that we are able to feel all that together no matter how tough the hurdle or how fearful we are we have climbed the highest mountains we can do this again! i'll cherish tomorrow with all my heart. hope you all do too. this may be a rushed job there's not as much effort placed in this as much as our other performances but being there with you all makes me feel at peace. loves.
sometimes filled with joyful moments with sweet memories at other times its packed with bitterness and bitten lips. times that made us laugh or cry times to treasure till the day we die. no matter how harsh no matter how mild no matter how much we don't want it to dull. it will eventually, it will very soon but it will always give you one more noon. it always gives that one day's grace its the time to accept, come what may. it shows how temporary things can be but life has its purpose, we will see. the meaningful journey between day and night the tears we shed to see the light. friends we held so dearly to us people we meet by fate by chance. loves in our lives we ought to cherish bold characters we may unleash. through day after day our faith begins to fray. to ponder over what we have left. it may be short and hard to believe but heartening that its long enough to live.
>> How many windows do you have in your room? > # one. I WANT MORE! >> What is the color of your walls? > # yellow and blue. you know what this means? its time for me to re-paint my room. >> Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet? > # hardwood. >> Do you get ready for the day in your room or toilet? > # both. >> What type of closet do you have? > # those with sliding doors. i need a bigger one now though. >> What size bed do you have? > # super single. but i want a queens >> Is your room big? > # unforutantely, no. >> Is it clean? > # errr... the answer is pretty obvious. maybe the garbage is like cleaner? >> What is your bedroom view out the window? > # a large grass field, half a playground, half the barbeque pit, my neighbour's house and many trees. >> What is your favorite part of your room? > # the bed. >> Do you have the following in your room: > [x] desk > [x] cell phone > [x] chair > [x] book shelf > [ ] dresser > [ ] TV > [x] computer > [ ] bean bag > [x] pictures > [x] mirror > [x] bed > [x] stuffed animal(s) > [ ] drumset ( I WISH ) > [x] clothes on the floor > [ ] plastic flamingo (?what the hell?) > [ ] guitar(s) > [ ] lava lamp > [ ] smoke detector > [ ] piano/keyboard > [x] locking door > [ ] can of soda > [ ] bottle of water > [ ] a blacklight > [ ] something about your own country > [ ] medals/ribbons > [x] trophies > [x] awards > [ ] water polo ball > [ ] soccer ball > [ ] volleyball > [ ] basketball > [ ] softball stuff > [ ] track gear > [ ] frisbee > [ ] beach ball > [ ] football > [ ] tennis ball > [ ] hockey stuff > [ ] lacrosse stick > [x] cds > [ ] sofa/futon/round chair > [ ] bottles of liquor > [ ] flag > [ ] stop sign/any sign > [ ] caution tape > [ ] paintball gun > [ ] airsoft gun > [ ] Real Gun > [ ]Cigarettes > [ ] Snowboard > [ ] Wakeboard > [ ] Skateboard > [x] Stereo > [x] books > [x] trash can > [ ] swimming goggles > [x] jacket > [ ] pet > [x] clock
tonight has been a night of two totally different emotions first was a really freaky part we watched kindaichi its been like really really long since i watched it! it was this mystery about a vampire quite lame at some parts but quite shocking also. there was one part when the vampire suddenly grabbed this guy's hand then xiao ting screamed! omg. i got a really big shock! so did xiaoting. just that she got a shock from the movie i got a shock from her screams... what the hell. after that interesting and freaky movie we changed into a totally different mood into a really sad and emotional one. the movie [little brother] was about this 2 brothers one of them had brain tumor and had to undergo for operation there was one part when the small brother went all the way to this mountain believing that the mountain water would cure him played truant on the day of his brother's operation just to go to the mountains to retrieve some water he ran back to the hospital wanting to give his brother who was on the verge of death, the water. thinking that it would heal him. the father stopped him and tried to bring him out of the room the bottle with the water fell on the floor with a thud. tears start to well up in my eyes that scene was so emotional. now we are watching meteor garden 2 what the hell. its pretty hilarious. what a range of emotions i've felt today. besides that i upgraded my plan! now i have incoming call =) yeah! like finally. so peeps. you guys can call me for as long as you want now =))) then went to eat lunch with my parents then went to town waited for xiaoting to come she took a very short time to come only. a very short time... not very long la only about 1 hour late only la. that's like the usual... hahaha... joking only. don't get upset xt. then after we studied alittle then went shopping at far east i bought a bag!! like finally i wanted to get one a long time ago man. shopped for quite a long time then headed home to watch the movies! what a day. i'd better get down to serious studies alr. =( JIA YOU PEEPS! xiaoting thinks vanness is very shuai in meteor garden 2. and she wanted me to type it in my entry -_-"
guess i'll have to study today i really don't feel like studying but looks like i don't have a choice. sometimes i wonder how come everytime we pass one stage of our lives, that stage would seem like it breezed past. yet when you are in that stage in your life, it feels as if it is going by so slowly, torturing.
i will never study medicine even if i can make it there though i highly doubt. it is a glorious and meaningful job to take but i think the moment i enter the lab i'll either puke or faint. heard so so much about it today. heard that there are like several bodies that are preserved for the sake of dissecting and studying them. these people are those of unclaimed bodies in old folks home and many other places. omg its damn freaky there are like bodies in tubes filled with liquids reminds me of some movies though. can you imagine being there late in the night! 0.0 awww man........ never. never. not me, i'll never enter that lab, i'll never be a doctor. today i watched click like FINALLY. it was quite touching i teared at the part when he took out the note and showed the line "will you still love me in the morning?" and she said "forever and ever and ever." how sweet can that get? awww man. apart from click today i'm so brain exhausted. i'm having a slight headache gosh. pretty painful =( had tuition today and finally mastered reaction kinetics. it was a long topic really really long i was like having a 2 hour lecture on it! really tired. extremely... ...
10 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME: - i'm not a closet mugger, for sure. - being loved holds an extreme importance in my life - i can't live without my friends - i like eating and because of that i think i'm becoming fatter and fatter each day. that's like pretty sad cause it mean i'll be obese in old age 0.0 - sleeps alot. [KNOWN FACT] - loves r.gym - wants to travel the world - i'm crazy about sudoku now - i like to play final fantasy - i appreciate literature but can't score at it. =( 9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART - be my comedian when i'm down - be there when i need you - flowers =) - be sincere... - make be the most important person in your life (bleah... i'm selfish!) - don't be possesive, i'm someone who's quite wild. but if i choose you, i chose you. so don't worry, please. - no tiu tiu's please - don't be a bastard by liking me for the sake of wanting company or a girlfriend. that's just plain stupid, find someone else. - love me. 8 THINGS I WEAR/CARRY EVERYDAY - my phone, helps me to keep in touch with my friends! - money! i need to eat and drink, can't do without food =p - ipod... somehow music connects to my emotions. i feel so much for some songs, they can make me cry and they can make me high. - ezlink, i need to travel and i'm not that rich to take a cab home =( - memories. sweet ones especially. - clothes! please, i don't do porn. - my smile, no matter how bad the day gets, smile. it really makes things much better. its not nice to burden others with my depressing look either. - eyedrops, in case i get dry eyes from wearing contacts. 7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME - somethings that people say and don't mean it. - when you are skinny ( or obviously skinnier than me) and say you are fat. =p - when i'm spending money like water. - when i'm not studying, nor the least motivated. - when r.gym is torn. - when i'm sleeping and the freaking teacher wakes me up by knocking the marker on the table like more than 10 times. -_-" - when those people at the back of the bus don't move in and i have to wait for the next one! its damn irritating. stop it and move in! 6 PLACES I'VE VISITED OR INTEND TO - paris, the paradise of romance. - st nicks, just recently. felt so familiar yet strange. - the ZOO! it was really fun! not seeing the animals, but the company =) - a playground. i'm reliving childhood again! - the movie theatre TOMORROW for click. - my classroom, every single dreary day. 5 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE - travel the world - to fall in love and get married - have kids, hope they won't be like those noisy bunch that i usually see outside =( - learn latin dancing - get a job that i like. that's like quite difficult la... 4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF - flying insects! - losing my friends, being a loner. =( - becoming fat. i'm really afraid. I DON'T WANT!! - AGEING. the word speaks for itself. 3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY - go to the toilet, can't imagine if someone doesn't! 0.0 - eat! A MUST! - sleep. lesser recently, thanks to sudoku. 2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW - sleep too late, which i am alr. - get pissed. i don't know what's wrong with me but i feel my mood swings. shucks. HELP. 1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW - xiaoting. seriously... i'm feeling damn emo. xt makes me laugh =) thanks xt. but i also want to see many other people, esp. the gymmers. love y'all. anyone who makes me smile is someone worth seeing.
the sunshine always doesn't seem to shine when i want to feel its rays the rain doesn't fall when i want it to the time doesn't fly when i want to get things over and done with the stars weren't there just when i needed them to cheer me up my motivation is lost when i need them to get me through this obstacle. i learn so much on the theme of time and fate in my literature classes, yet i don't realise how fate is playing on me. year after year the idea of how fate plays a role in our lives. how coincidental things seem to be, how two unknown people can fall in love with the help of time and fate. being at the right place at the right time doing the right thing. i've been taught, preached so so much about all these, at yet i don't see my life twiddling about the fingers of time and fate.
i might be going for a overseas cip trip end of this year its like they look at all factors such as results and cca then decide who goes for what. hopefully someone i know will be in the same group as me! i don't want to go alone it'll be quite boring if i don't know anyone there. tomorrow i'm watching click! can't wait la i've been wanting to watch it for a really really really really really really really long long long long time. i heard its good la. must watch =) can't believe i did GP homework omg. she said she'll send out those who didn't do it. i want to get out also leh... hahaa... joking la. yea. but i did anyways. bet like half the class didn't do. so it'll be pretty impossible for her to put everyone out of class! should sleep early man got test tomorrow nights everyone. sometimes life just like to play tricks on us.
promos coming already can't wait to get over and done with it la i'm really tired of studying. =( feeling pretty f-up today la. i don't know why might be because of gym stuff really hope we are not that sucky. sian la. plus i'm supposed to have tuition today then SOMEONE like sort of forgot to come study until forgot to come awww man. i don't know why but i'm just feeling damn pissed today then kass told me tomorrow not going to watch click with me what the hell... sian la. i wanted to watch it SOOOOOO much. just gotta postpone it to friday then. prob watching with xt,amos and victor or something the same 4 pple hahaha. its something comforting though. can't wait for this dreary week to hurry end.
its like madness instead of sleeping in classes now i'm starting this sudoku craze its starting to give me a headache though so i doubt it'll last for long. today no pe! cause the floors were kinda wet so can't really do anything so we got to go home early =) went with terri and xt to subway then pei xt to dye her hair since she didn't want to make friends with micheal tan she decided to dye it like finally... can't wait for this thurs gonna watch click with kass heard its damn touching and alot of people cried over it! really can't wait tomorrow got auditions for the teachers' day perf and econs extra lessons with miss giam. so i guess that leaves only my friday left but then again i might have tuition on friday =( but nvm i think me and xt is going out after that! haha. so i guess all my weekdays are fully booked this week busy busy busy
was walking down the canteen everything seemed the same the tables, the benches nothing seemed to be out of place only the shade. the feeling of being outcasted being a stranger being someone who do not belong there just feels so weird and unwelcoming. walking through where i used to walk in a slighty different shade of blue only reminds me of how fast things have happened. what i dread at the same time called home is now what i miss and what i can only call my past. t i m e i feel the lack of that element in my life i feel as if the winds are pulling me through my life giving me no time to stop and ponder nor time to stop and treasure. things have changed from black to white i've made so many new friends and at the same time lose the time i had with the others i so treasured. there's so many things i've gained and so many things i've lost during my experience. from the cosy place i've called home for so many years i had to put that down prepare myself to adpat to a new enviroment a whole new unfamiliar place with new faces, new responsiblities, new way of doing things. it quite amazing how we all made it through all these while. as i stand in the middle i felt transparent like i'm non-existent even when i'm standing right there.
yesterday was hell of a day really fun to the max at first when me and xiaoting were walking towards suntec cause we were going there to eat crystal jade. on the way there on an escalator there was this woman in front who was holding this really large sushi basket then there was this man behind me say " SUSEE! YOU SEE, SUSEE!" like repeatedly for a really long time i thought he was talking to a child or something then when xiao ting looked behind me he was holding A RAT! actually a guniea pig and it was resting on his arm without a cage or anything la. he was like saying that it expecting it to like know what the hell he's saying plus he was like damn loud even the person holding the sushi heard and walked away. omg la. after dinner we went to watch fireworks as night at esplanade were watching from the marina square foodcourt not that fantastic from there though especially when there are so many heads in front you but the good stuff comes later... we waited for amos who took 1 hour to come and ended up missing the firework only being able to hear them. =( then we walked to the esplanade we thought of those tricks we used to do of those when we stared at the sky passerbys would also look up! we started by sitting at a ledge then four of us stared at the sky into nothing. one guy fell for it! he turn to look up! but it took him another split second to realise he was fooled and quickly turned back down to pretend that nothing happened damn act cool la! further as we walked across esplanade this one is even more hilarious victor walked up front and he snapped out his arm pointing at nothing in the distant shouting "eh!' one couple fell for it especially the man he snapped back his head really really really fast then when they found out that they were fooled the wife was like "aiyo!" wahahahahaha. i think we are really an evil bunch of crazy people with nothing better to do. then were walked towards fullerton on the way there we did a whole lot more of those tricks we were even counting the ratio of succesful ones at first! after that we went fullerton and sat down at the basement amos and xiaoting went rattling on about their pokemon wanted to even plug in the adapter! but we didn't la. hahaha. at about 12 plus amos wanted to go home so we walked him to the bus stop but he MISSED his bus cause we were still xing zhi bo bo and decided to come with us to eat! so we walked to lau pa sat and ate satay! its been a pretty long time since i went there to eat satay alr! sat there for really long then we started talking about ghostly encounters that made all my hair stand damn freaky fortunately we changed topic soon after. *phew* if not i don't know how to go home by myself. talked for a whole lot more and we saw this prostitute with really old and disgusting old man its really damn turn off can't believe how someone can do this kind of things after that we decided it was really late so we headed to the fullerton bus stop on the way the road was really really empty considering it was 3 am! so we asked amos to do a back flip in the middle and he did! xiaoting even video'ed it! after that victor went home while we continued walking towards the bus stop when we were walking to lau pa sat we saw this really freaky alter in front of a building called the arcade or something we didn't want to pass it a second time so we walked by the road side just as when we thought we already passed the alter and wanted to walk on the pavement we turned to saw the alter there! omg i had a hell shock of my life i ran out into the road clinging on to xiaoting! it was damn freaky seriously. soon after nr1 arrivied so we took a rather long journey back home as it went to marina centre then stopped for rest then head back to yishun! seriously, what a hell of a day.
first time i'm up this early? nah... i haven't slept yet since yesterday haha. went to play mahjong just came home 0.0 yeps. didn't win didn't lose but contented was hoping i won't lose cause i'm sort of saving up and fortunately i managed to save myself from taking out an extra dollar from my wallet! guess i won't have much of today left thinking that i'll go slp soon waking up at 3 plus go for piano at 5 plus three quarts of the day is gone already! after that i'd probably head down to esplanade to watch the fireworks hope they won't dissapoint me. i'd better catch some sleep soon. bleah. nights to those who haven't slept like me and morning to those who just woke up =)
now i finally understood how some people go crazy over studying there was one nut case in yj due to over stress of studying went mad and had to stop school! what the... i'm starting to feel it like at the 8th month of being in jc life. been doing alot alot of maths the past few days and its making me have this really bad headache seeing all those numbers just makes me and xiaoting go mad =( but then again the satisfaction that comes after completion it feels really good i feel accomplished! jia you peeps! promos are just round the corner hope we all can make it to the next level which also means more is to come. J2.
 every little moment brings our lives around a turn every little smile leaves us floating for that while. hugs and kisses X O X O behold! taken aback by details every note every mail. words of wisdom from where we learn the simplest things to me, you bring. our love stable it stands no matter the heat it never bends poised in perfection ready without hesitation. friends for life placed in our archives never had never left. it was always there and meant to be.
my life seems to revolve around a montonous circle study eat sleep and occasionally outings. especially when gym performances are over it seems like there's no more surprises to my life there's nothing for me to await only the holidays after promos i guess. what a boring wait. i believe that at every time in our lives we should have a aim even the most simplest aim like completing something is a perfect aim in life somehow it feels like i've got no aim anymore even the weekends seem as monotonous as the weekdays why the weekends? there's nothing much special during the weekends. i'm bored with life's routines.
went to esplanade to find ele, mina, perry and victor at night then victor due to "some circumstances" had to go down to thomson prata house so we all cabbed down just because of "his circumstances". at the prata house i drank milo dinosaur! so did 3 other. haha when we were ordering the guy gave us this pen perry play until the pen broke so we tried acting blur and say we returned it it didn't work so perry had to go get a pen from mou mou ren's shop. in the end they spoilt the pen ink and gave it to the guy what the hell almost broke it again! when the pratas came the utensils that came with it were OBVIOUSLY dirty with white stains on them so we asked the same guy to change it for us he took the utensils and somehow never came back we left the pratas there left uneaten and put 10 bucks which were for the drinks on the table ended going to eat ba chok mee at the shop near prata house. haha. met xiaoting after that went yishun to play at yishun park playground it was pretty dark we sat see saw, swing and some other thing which i don't know what's it called. stayed the the playground for pretty long with xiaoting telling me the story of a movie she watched at sophia's house pretty touching story. then when we were about to go these 3 guys walked pass looked, glared and then laughed. after walking alittle in front of us they turn back to wave thinking that i'll just not do anything they were surprised when i waved back at them! and i quickly turned back to face the other direction and walked away. thankfully they didn't like come up to us or follow us *phew* it certainly revealed the childish side of me.
who ever are you whatever you are. if i was just to find a boyfriend any ol' how just like that it would be meaningless it wouldn't fill me it would just keep that feeling out of me temporarily keeping me company but if its company i want i can get it from all my friends they'll be even better company. but no that's not what i want. being with someone to just keep out that emptiness in you its just pointless it will only bring more emptiness to you you will feel like you can't love that there's no true love in you and you don't know what you want in life. this will make you feel hollow instead of filled. girls girls girls we can't resist anything that's good we whine and complain our sizes to relieve some anger if we could stop oursleves we would long ago but we can't so complaining serves the purpose of reminding ourselves hopefully controling our appeitite. its good to know that you are fat intead of deluding ourselves that we are not. at least we will do something about it poseidon i doubt you know me in person you totally do not understand girls if you think that things are that simple and you can just use anything to replace that emptiness i can assure you that you will be one lonely person in time to come.
i hate returning home when all i get is the emptiness that is held by the four walls there's no one there to respond no one there when you want to share your excitement even when i come back crying there's no one noticing its not that i can't live by myself but after going home with that empty feeling in the pit of my stomach so many times i don't like returning home just thinking that i'll swing open the doors and no one's there makes me feel like staying out the whole night its not entirely about responding either its the presence that i want it makes me feel safe, comforted chasing all my fears away planting warmth in my heart. guess that's the way my life goes and will continue being like that. so there's probably no point in me expressing all these cause there's probably nothing that can fill that gap.
today was probably the day when i walked the most walked as in physical exercise in the morning i walked 7 km for double whammy ( a school fun raising project) we practically walked through a whole forest took a detour from cj to macritchie the journey took us about 2 hours! then we gymmers headed down to thomson plaza for lunch before going to ronald's house then to the zoo met pretty lao shi there she wore a dress and heels looked totally hot. walked a whole lot more for about 3 hours in the zoo before heading down to ronald's house ate KFC for dinner FAT- then watched this korean show i'll never ever forget its called a moment to remember. its about this girl who had an illness ( i don't know how to spell it! ) which made for forget things like slowly till she can't remember anything at all she's married to this lovely guy who is so sweet! the plot may be simple and expected but upon seeing the guy's tears and emotions surge even i can't help but cry. tearing is not that bad alr. the other rgymmers there are practically crying their hearts out can't believe how emotionless i can get. the show is really really really fantastic if you can find the show WATCH IT its called A MOMENT TO REMEMBER! its something no one should miss out! all your feelings seemed to flow with the show as if you feel so so much for the characters in the show you can feel his pain her torture the extremes between them. i'll never forget.
tmr is zoo day with the gymmers! its been a pretty long since i've been there then we'll be headed to ronald's house watching some movies i guess BETTER NOT be zoolander heard from the bad experiences the last time round haha can't wait!! ladedum...
its never a skill my dearest never just that over the years we gradually learn how to control those emotions and even when it surfaces you find it easier to surpress them after experiencing them before. so i guess its not about forgetting its actually about lettting go people always come to realise that actually you'll never forget whether is it that it comes back to you with a tinge of sadness or with a laughter to push it aside it will come back to you not to haunt you but to remind you of your past and asking you to learn from them. never take it as a heart broken but a heart strengthened cause everytime you take that fall you learn how to pick yourself up and move on those who don't move on are those who will always fail in life never being able to really let go. don't deny yourself either trying to psycho yourself won't help everything will just surge back with a bigger wave a bigger impact listen to your feelings know what you want learn to accept reality hope for the better and pray for the best. with lots of love. XOXO
i've got myself a refeshing look today! finally after months of torture i've got my haircut and its really really short if you place three finger from the bottom of the roots of your hair when you lift them thats the length at the back! haha. wonder how i'm gonna tie it up for school tomorrow =p maybe i won't! P.S. thanks kass for accompanying in such a short notice =)
woke up early in the morning yesterday still feeling sleepy headed down to town to get red and orange glitter thought we would use them to "put" the flames on our heads but there was a change in decision oh well. me and mina when to taka to buy food and drinks then headed down to nygh at 1.30 to find out the audi only opens at 3 WOW so we sort of waited there for like an hour or so in between we went to buy junk food from those vending machines bought M'n'M's we put the money in and keyed in the no. waited to find that the packet was stuck there we slamed the machine like 10 times then it drop *phew* when we could enter the audi we rehearsed one more time then went to put make up on today's make up was nicer then yesterday's! it was slightly lighter making us look less like a witch haha. so came our performance we did well guys! give a pat on your backs! after that we headed down to bukit timah rd to eat prata! sat there for like damn long left there about 1 plus haha waiting with amos for his parents when we wanted to leave thinking that he's parents would reach soon he's parents hadn't even left the house omg so we had to wait like much much longer than we expected after his parent's arrived four of us living in the same area(almost) took a cab home the fare was like 20 plus la what the hell haha luckily when we split cost it was only about 6 bucks each! on the way home i found a math's tuitor! woohoo been finding one for a pretty long time i think its time i set on one i really need one!! considering i have only 28 marks for my mid-yrs what the hell la. so i'm back home to the present state. yep. probably sleeping soon *yawns* i'm afraid i'll wake up damn late tomorrow actually intended to do some studies hopefully i can =( nights everyone esp. the gymmers =) sweet dreams.
time just ticked by so fast yesterday one minute we were preparing the other minute we were eating at bukit timah and just another minute i'm at home. i'm really relief that all our efforts were not wasted that we really did well yet another part of me just doesn't want to let go of that feeling i don't want to go to sleep leaving yesterday behind lost in reality but i know i can't just hold on to it forever its just a unrealistic dream of mine...
today's performance was pretty scary at first tried to yanshen as much a possible hopefully we succeeded it in haha. it wasn't too bad! well done guys at least now we know that our efforts are not wasted remember the feeling when we finished? the smiles on our faces the joy we had in accomplishing what we aimed for a week plus ago. come to think of it i don't want this moment to pass i don't want time to just fly by like that i want to keep all these memories the emo pictures, the hugs and angry faces. the tension the nervourness the togetherness we had. and one more to go.
tomorrow's the first big day where it seems like dejavu the waiting, the sweaty palms, the encouragement, the fear... just about a month ago we were standing with all those in our minds today we stand together to feel those emotions. previously we stood as individuals. for tomorrow and the day after we have to rely on each other look out for each other pray for each other take care of each other think of each other only then we will succeed. jia you gymmers. love you always.
One day I wrote her name upon the strand But came the waves and washed it away Again I wrote it with a second hand But came the tide, and made my pains his prey. 'Vain man,' said she, 'that dost in vain essay A mortal thing so to immortalise; For I myself shall like to this decay, And eke my name be wiped out likewise' 'Not so,' quod I, 'Let baser things devise To die in dust, but you shall live by fame; My verse your virtues rare shall eternise, And in the heavens write your glorious name: Where, whenas Death shall all the world subdue, Our love shall live, and later life renew.' this poem has a sense of melancholy yet beneath everything is a romantic dream of a man who has fallen in love. the simplicity of wanting to immortalise their love, their affections. he passes the trials he has to face before he is able to overcome the forces of time that no one can actually go against. and yet he did.
i know we are awesome people with super capabilities but there's a point in everyone of us where we simply can't take it anymore this is definately not an easy task and making us do this in a week is close to impossible but we are the people to bring the impossibles closer to being possible it is our love for each other the support we have for one another that helps us bridge the gap. jiayou everyone =)
i stumbled i picked myself up and started anew i thought i did i thought i could scrape off the dirt on my knees rub my bruises cry the pain off and continue walking on. but these bruises just refuses to go away they seem to stay on forever just when i really felt like my knees no longer hurt from the impact and that my tears have dried i pull myself up to find that my legs have becomed weak and that i don't have determination to take another step. i promised to stop whining jump on my feet and walk or even run but i just can't cause my knees are giving way.
come on la it has only been the sixth day of training so far we have come up with a 3 min tao taught every single member in the team coordinated to almost perfect (which it WILL be perfect on that day) organised the stuff to wear on that day we are just fabulous i tell you. its pretty amazing when you think of how we work its damn fast la one day come out tao next day practicing the effort we take and the determination is have i think its really commendable! r.gymmers! we have done really really well and we will complete this cip with pride and glory! deeply in love with you guys, seriously.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |