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this was one hell of a day man first it was school then after school rushed down to amos house, ate then headed down to town. after that we got stationed at our respective venues we were at mariott hotel in charge of vip's baricade opening! so we got to see quite a few vips like some minister and stars like quan yi feng, bryan wong, michelle chia and gurmit singh. after all the vip's went through we were dismissed from our station and we could walk around. so we went to the paragon sector (the vip sector) to watch the parade. after standing there for awhile, there was a person in charge who said we could just take up any empty seats if we wanted, so we did. we sort of saw like three quarts of the show! what a cip. tmr's going to be a hectic day again. probably as hectic or even worse! 0.0 oh wells. its the last day after so many weeks. jia you!
today was school with the 2.4 run at the end of it. comparing the last year's timing i lagged by 1 min. if that's not depressing enough, on the way home i got caught in the rain like really heavy rain that started raining suddenly when i was walking home. with all the common test bogged down on me i got a message saying lao shi was at bishan today. was really fustrated at that point of time then finally when i could settle myself and i wanted to study my mom just told me that i couldn't use the house for tuition on sunday. so i had to go book a function room and then the guy told me i had to get a cheque first. i swear i wanted to kill him at that point of time. so i had to go all the way home, called my dad to write me a cheque tmr. then he told me that there was still a cheque with them so i went all the way back and booked the room. i really have no time to study for common test its like chingay for the next 2 days leaving ONLY sunday free. i'm so screwed. i'm really annoyed by today. please pass. HURRY.
chinese new year is over just like that i hate it when time seems to flick pass my eyes just like that. i just hate it seriously we were all awaiting for the new year to come and it did and it left. this year we are awaiting for the a's to be over and i bet it would come and it would go equally as fast. but why? i don't want JC life to end so fast. i mean that would mean the end of childhood i guess (though we are not that young anymore) that means that we can't play around anymore like we used to. i don't want i don't want (whines like phua) tomorrow school is gonna start and common tests are coming next week and i'm TOTALLY not prepared. i guess i'll screw it up again. i better not waste my life away. michele, please study. everyone else, please study too.
 that day we were just talking about chiang raiwe talked and talked, talking about the kids, the place when all the memories just swarm back to me. i can't believe what it would have been like if i didn't go, if i went india instead or anywhere else. maybe i wouldn't have felt anything, but now that i have experienced it, i don't ever want to miss it for anything else in my life. this trip wasn't solely for nyaa, wasn't for my testimonials even if there wasn't nyaa i still would have gone. the experience is just something so precious that you just can't stop missing it. if we could really go back this year. that would be swell. but there is just that unpredicatability that makes me ponder over the possibilities. we haven't even passed the first common test, there's still so much more to come in the future. all the what if's just appears in my mind. maybe at a later date, everyone will be too stressed to think of chiangrai. maybe next time the passion would be gone. i don't know. i guess we could only just hope and wait for time to pass. it couldn't have been better.
must it be like that? it definately didn't turn out the way i wanted everything to be like. everything's in chaos and so are my tears. i'm just so silly and naive. please don't let all these spoil my valentines night, please. night loves.
Thank you for this moment I've gotta say how beautiful you are Of all the hopes and dreams I could've prayed for There you are If I could have one dance forever I would take you by the hand Tonight it's you and I together I'm so glad, I'm your man And if I lived a thousand years You know, I never could explain The way I lost my heart to you That day. But if destiny decided I should look the other way Then the world would never know The greatest story ever told And did I tell you that I love you tonight? sometimes love is really that great.
i love valentines, not in the recieving, not in eating all the chocolates and getting all those sweets. but i love valentines for in the knowing that i am not forgotten. its nice to know that i am not forgotten by many of you and for those who remembered me, thanks to... PhuaXiaoting for the milo, the vitagen and the freddo chocolate. i think the chocolate is good. Besides that, thanks for the help you gave and the support i had from you. Tiffany for the flower pot. HuiRen for the plastic cup of marshmellows, biscuits and sweets. Natasha for the note and the heart. Lalee for the chocolate cornflakes, it was my breakfast. WeiQi for the lovely orange gerbera. TerriTan and Esmond for the candle and the INTERESTING picture. Chengyuan, Maw, Daniel, Daryl, Grace, Amanda and Alicia for the chocolates, lollipops and sweets. although technically i'm banned from eating them but i'll admire them anyways. haha. Miss Tan Jiu Lie for the ferrero rocher. Alvan and Perry for the really long marshmellow and the bear lollipop. Miss Giam for the GIANT stick. Gabriel for the toblerone. Alicia Lim for bag of goodies and the beautiful card. Ling Yi for the sweets. Kassandra for the drawing (though she brought it home to edit -_-") and the chocolate cornflakes. Cheerin for the goodies. Natalie for the M&Ms Amelia for the hersheys, card and sticker. Carmelita for the cushion heart, ang pao wang wang, the straw heart and the letter. Marion for the bag of goodies (haven't opened it yet but i can see a lollipop stick poking out from on top. haha.) Shermeen, Cassie, Nicole and Irvis for the chocolates and photo. Sandra for the cookies. Dom for the red rose and the message. get well soon. Erwin for the "meaningful" tag. Alex and Victor for the love you tags. Scrawny for the love you tag and the message. Marc and Marcus for last night's messages of wishes. and anyone else who wished me well and said thanks for my gifts! if i missed you out, i'm really sorry and just slap me in the face tomorrow. haha. just kidding. i'm really touched by all the overwhelming gifts. thanks for everything everyone. thanks for remembering me. thanks for giving so much effort. especially for 2t35'06, today our classroom was piling up with sweets and chocolates and gifts on EVERY TABLE. i love 2t35'06 for sharing the love. i bet this year would be a wonderful one. HAPPY VALENTINES LOVES.
i don't know where i get the determination to do these kind of stuff you know. it brings me like so much things to do on top of everything else i have to do in school. i don't even know why i bother. but sometimes, i just like to give. i like to recieve things, even those small notes or things that doesn't cost much and yet it can make my day. i guess from this, i like giving people things. especially those personalised things. those that i make with my own hands. i don't know if you guys will like them, i'll just have to wait till wednesday to see.
i was walking home just now when i noticed how cloud-less the skies were i could see so many stars so i just stood there and stared at them. it made me realise that i'm so busy with everything else nowadays that i don't look at the stars anymore. i remember myself glancing at the skies when i come home. nowadays, after training, i'm pretty much rushing home to sleep! its a pity that such stars go unnoticed.
today was the training i created my rope routine for this year. there's so much difficulty in it but i'm sure i can overcome all of it. if its not difficult, what's the point. feeling pretty good today. considering i have one routine almost done AND i found out i lost weight (could be due to the run yesterday!) thanks kass for the music!! do i really have to treat the sandwich and apples?? wahahha. okkk. i will...I WILL OK? at your request! to my secret girlfriend : you know what, its damn nice when you get that kind of jia you messages once in awhile, when the day seemed so draggy, when i dread everything ahead, your messaged just cheered me up =) thanks. you made my day. still got AQ to do. darn. night loves.
this is crazy. today i was freaking sleepy in ALL the lessons. then after school had to run 4.2km. RUN. unlike in double whammy. its just practically madness. somehow and somewhere i managed to gather enough stamina to complete the run 0.0 even with all the hot sun and rocky pathways, i'm proud of myself AND MY CLASS 2T35! WE GOT 4TH AS A CLASS! as usual, huiren and erwin got top 20 positions. woohoooo~ wahahha. i'm really veyr proud of you guys 2t35! huiren got 20th position! that's damn good la! at least we have one position holder in gym! =)) erwin got 14th position. that's like even better la. ah my god - star canoeist. the rest of you guys though it wasn't top 20 but still THE EFFORT WAS THERE. YOU GUYS STILL DID GREAT!! I LOVE 2T35! anyways, amos and dom is gonna have tuition later over at my place. bet i'll conk out in no time. its been a fufilling day =)
had tuition today gerard told me he was going to visit ele at cathay at first, i thought about the time and the distance and didn't felt like going out. after thinking, i guess - life's not too long to live as friends, i decided to pay ele at surprise visit. at first when kass and me got there. we were like hiding away from her, thinking about a way to surprise her. but somehow it just got to a point where she saw us and basically it wasn't really a surprise. wahahha. oh wells. anyways, alvan was on the way and we were waiting for him before we ordered and ele asked us why we don't order first, so we told her that we waiting for her secret boyfriend. she was pretty irritated by our "secret boyfriend talk". muhahaha. (the laughter reminds me of how hr laughs) alvan got to cathay, we ate merlionster, talked, had an exco meeting for the first time, then alvan left, followed by kass, then gerard came. drank snapple, i drank apple, wanted to try the banana one but was pretty afraid i wouldn't like it, so i decided to go for the normal apple. what a loser i am. wahahaha. so we talked all the way till 1 when ele was left off from work. ele was D. so we tried to cheer her up with straw hearts and stars, my stupid joke, gerard's flower and our smiles. :) hoped they worked ele. don't be so D. you'll age faster!...nahhh. just joking. took a cab home with ele and gerard. stop being emo, EMO KIDS. don't make your world revolve around your problems but instead be optimistic and be happy. even when you are so so D. tell yourself i can do it and tell yourself that you want to be happy. it'll make things better. comfort yourself that everything's fine and i, a strong person with a strong character, can survive. somtimes though things may seem really bleak cause you are so so dissapointed with some people you just want to scream, let it out, scream. go crazy. there will always be these kind of people around. some of them may be just aquaintances, yet others may be very close friends. i sometime get dissapointed with some people too. but i try not to let them bring my mood down. these people are those who tries to bring your spirits down, but prove them wrong and be as happy as you can be. laugh, cry, scream, shout, jump, exercise, roll on the floor - be crazy. good night, my love ones.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |