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i have really caring friends and i'm serious everytime i'm feeling down somehow you guys know it you guys noticed it you guys showed your concern. thanks ele, hr and xt. everytime i was down you were the ones who talked to me who tried to cheer me up convince me that it wasn't worth feeling like that. it was you guys who gave me the strength to smile the love to stop the tears from flowing thank you. i'm definately nothing without these people.
i feel no reason to smile it comes back to me drop by drop.
depressed...
though its not up yet but anyways happy birthday. it been a long time since we first met =) this yr is the 7th time i ever said happy birthday to you! today was a pretty busy day for me... last night ended with late mahjong night then this morning had to wake up at like 10 to go to school for PTM then head down to hilton hotel for an award ceremony. omg it was damn boring they made like 3 ppl go up and make a damn bloody long speech and all saying the same things over and over again. there was one with a frog story and another with a frog and a scorpion story what the hell i fell asleep la anyways then after that i had to head down for piano lessons then followingly went to meet ta and jy for kbox anthea and ys joined us later on anthea left for a friend's performance at DXO and ta left subsequently leaving jy and ys and me at town we walked ard window shopped alittle at cine then went level 6 to sit at the couch sat and talked for like 2 hours pretty depressing topics... more like TOPIC. then moodily we headed home on NR1 what a day!
i asked what's love and one of them replied... "love is simple yet complicated...spontaneous yet difficult...enriching yet depressing"
yep. played mahjong today its been a pretty long time since i've touched those tiles! me and xt played as one quite fun though we had some moments of conflict. haha its more fun though when its two playing for one at least you can discuss your decision with someone else. we were like losing pretty badly at first then at the end we won leh! not bad eh. won 10 bucks each and because of the fact that i'm penniless the 10 bucks is pretty important haha... thanks xt for being such an angel accompanying me to everywhere even when it's at "the ends of the world" tomorrow is P.T.M. gosh.. the comment that my teacher might have that i can first think of is that she sleeps in class very often. even "very" is a mild word. haha. random: i don't like tonight's skies for they seem grey and starless.
"all she wanted was to hold on to his hand forever and never let go but in a blink she realised, she'd be hurting him more in the end" but you never know what you have till you lose it. P.S. Sometimes the words you say can make me cry, hr. Cry not because you made me sad, but cry because of realisation of the truth that you always speak of.
 You are Green Lion, who gives graceful and pure impression. You are dignified, and possess delicate sensitivity and cool intelligence along side your sweetness. But unlike your friendly outlook, you are very cautious towards others, and can not relax in front of anyone. Your weakness is that you can not adapt easily to new environments. You tend to take a very passive attitude when starting something. But when it comes nearer towards the goal, you become very obstinate, and your ego will start to show up. You may become very dogmatic, but because of your personality, people will not feel harmed. You possess a skill of a manager, and even if you experience difficulty, you don't show grimness. You are very practical and precise person. You can make sound and rational decisions, but sometimes can be argumentative. In life, you are long distance runner type. You treasure your past and find something from there. You will have your best days in old age. You are not so emotional type, and therefore look much older than your actual age. You should not think things according to your own interest. Your reliable character is trusted by people around you. After getting married you may turn out a little nagging type. But will be a good wife and a mother. took this from phuaa... if you want to know what you are, click here.
i'm really afraid that i can't take up such a big responsibility of being a leader i have never experience being the one in charge being the one who has the power to command others i'm afraid because of this i'll become too bossy and stuff i think to command is easier than earning respect. hopefully things will turn out alright... enough of this topic it will turn out alright =) i really love it how we gymmers can get things done to fast! its not easy to create a tao when we are not perfect ourselves and we did it again and again being a gymmer makes me feel really proud! although trainings are really intense at times and they are pretty time consuming and tiring i'm always happy to be at trainings =) though there are times i would whine about how aching i am and how tired i am but i'll still go through the trainings with all i have with the best i can give. anyways i just realised its been a really long time since i've played mahjong haha i used to play quite often somehow... yea... i sort of gradually stopped playing. *sigh there's nothing i can do but smile now.
me? captain? hopefully i won't make a laughing stock of myself! being captain next year is like the biggest responsibility and tittle i ever had since primary school! i've never even become monitor before! that's like pretty pathetic of me but anyone who knows my character know why haha. but i'll try my best all the same =) hopefully next year will be a good year for gym thanks for those who voted for me. i'll uphold the gym motto errr... do we actually have one? how 'bout : Get Your Medals! lol. anyways there's a nanyang gym night coming up and cj's gym team is going to perform =) if anyone's interested to come just give me call or a msg i'll pass to you the details! i've got quite alot of things on my schedule tonight so i'd better get going! love gym. love the gymmers even more.
people always say we'll find the right one someday but how on earth do we know who's the right one? like is it borned in us to know? or do we have to seek to know. maybe we do that's why alot of us end up without the right one. one wiseman said that maybe its like in the olden stories where each set of lovers are predestined to be together and they are connected to each other by some celestial string but then again what if the other end of this string lies somewhere across the oceans how then will you pull it to yourself or maybe we will just give up and cut it off the wiseman however says otherwise she thinks that it will come to us slowly. this wiseman is my dearest huiren. she believes that in every girl lies a romantic dream of their love life i used to have so so many dreams so much expectations and hope for love. however the more i experience the more i lose hope in these dreams. i still do have hopes but because of knowing how realistic this world is it has becomed much less than before. i used to believe in happy ever after but somehow my enviroment causes me to lose hope in that fairy tale. sometimes i wished i didn't grow older life would be so pure and full of fruitful expectations for love. the wise one agrees. love we all seek love but do we really know what is love?
i hate it when its like this i really really cherish being with you people and when we fall apart its not gonna help even if the rest is with me i want each and everyone of you with me in this journey even though we had unhappiness and struggles i want to walk with you guys hand in hand into what's coming up in the future. so please hopefully we can forgive and forget then maybe we can truely have a happy ending together. from the bottom of my heart.
life is filled with so many uncertainties at this point of time and the worst thing about it is that you feel that you can't do anything about it not knowing what's coming up next. you can't even prepare yourself mentally. you hope for the best and yet at the back of your mind you are afraid that the worst is to arrive. these uncertainties make your every decision seem so difficult to make, your heart tells you to listen to one thing and your mind tells you to listen to another. i'm so so lost, lost in your world, lost on an empty field. its like no matter how you walk, no matter which direction you head, there seem to be no end or maybe there is no end. you just seem to be walking on eternal numbness, seeing nothing, knowing nothing. you seem to be living just each day without meaning. the day passes like it has to and your life has to go on as it must...
i totally do just maybe i don't show it on the outside i know how you feel and i know what you mean by those 6 words at least i think i do. i've been feeling the same way as you are maybe in a slighty different way in a different situation but come to think of it our situation is not that different. i know it's not a very nice feeling but tell yourself to smile things will turn out fine. aiya... even if you know that things won't just psycho yourself to think that everything will be ok? haha. you've got me here still ain't it? smile xt! for tomorrow will be a better day.
its the last half hour of your birthday! had fun? a preview of today: we went raffles city to eat in the afternoon today's really sinful we ate ben and jerry's banana split with mango lime, chocolate chip cookie dough and dublin mudslide. yUmMmMm... then we ate chippy's calamari rings and drank peachy keen at some shop called MX or something like that at raffles city basement. omg. really sinful! then we headed to the club played pool we played three games i won all the first two she left one more ball on the table the last game the only ball left was the cue ball but i still won anyways bleah haha. to make the say even more sinful we ate chicken wings while playing pool I'M SERIOUSLY GOING TO GET FAT! then we headed for kbox at marina here's the receipt:
we got this super large room that was probably meant for 10 plus people subsequently, we took a bus home. home sweet home.
it alr like 5 plus in the morning been at the swimming pool with xt can't believe how long we sat at the pool we fell asleep there too! xt's like damn tired she's like sleeping on my couch now yet i'm still wide awake weird- btw... HAPPY BIRTHDAY XT! today's sunday which is so depressing cause there's school the next day =( awww man! random: what was that supposed to mean can you like tell me please i'm dying to know you can't just leave it there with 3 words hanging there. please tell me so we both can move on no matter which path we take.
maybe i shouldn't have come online it made my mood just crash on the floor seeing those 3 words not exactly sure of the meaning but deep down somehow i think i can figure it out why why why... maybe that's a question to ask myself. sorry
today's dinner was supposedly a cj after artistic comp celebration dinner somehow it ended up with half not ard what a joke but i had fun anyways it's always fun when i have the r.gymmers there! we took alot of stupid photos and did alot of stupid things. i ate alot of things today! first, i ate yong tau foo noodles in the morning then i ate pau and coffee in the afternoon in the late afternoon i ate like tons of cafe cartel bread and a cranberry peach blend. soon after i ate rosti and caramel custard at marche WHAT A PIG I AM. then me mina and ele took 133 to amk from esplanade. talked alot along the way its comforting to know that there are people who think the way i do. sigh next year is going to be another hectic year i wonder if i'll explode. we'll see there's still so much to be done and so much things to think through can't believe how time flies.
my mom says i'm a garang guni man cause i keep everything even plastic bags and paper bag i am a garang guni man but the only thing i collect is memories. i kept the paper bag you gave me, ele. i kept dried flowers i kept photos i kept movie tickets all because they held memories memories i want to remember memories that reminded me of so many things that made me happy. i am a garang kuni man.
*will stay by you forever and ever and ever and ever... *will be there to catch you whenever you fall *won't walk away just because you made one silly mistake *care and show that they do *try their best to cheer you up whenever you are feeling down *are there to comfort you everytime you shed a tear *will always stand right behind you to watch your back *will not let anyone make you sad *will try their best to keep that pretty smile on your face *you want to keep them for life.  i'm glad and thankful for i have them to depend on and that they are the ones who keep the smile on my face. they are the ones who makes my life a much better one. without these people, i won't be able to stand up at this point of time. thanks a whole lot.
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MICHELE STOP IT! CONTROL YOURSELF!
today we gave the artistic gymmers the balloons we bought for them! they are so pretty. i like the black star! to artistic gymmers: jia you! tomorrow's your competitions! just have faith and believe in yourself you can do it! all the way!!! i wonder if other ccas do this kinda stuff too. gym does and it makes me so emotionally attached to my cca. it really sweet when we do things for each other and it really makes your day just when you are feeling down these people pop up with surprises to cheer you up! how bout that! today i went for the competitions it was only 1 event though - HIGHBAR not bad... well done gymmers! then we went thai express to eat as usual shared this dish called phat thai talay with mina after that ele and kass had cravings for hagen daz so we went up to get some noticing that there was a food fest below we headed down after that and i bought ice cream! gymmers really know how to eat! (ele promises that this will only last 1 week... we'll see. bleah.) i'm really gonna grow really really really FAT- not long we headed home. was kinda tired so didn't join ele, mina and perry for bubble tea today was another photo taking day =) took like several photos esp. of all the balloons! love them to bits. all the best gymmers! you can do it!
i'm afraid fearful of everything fearful of dissapointment fearful of being unwanted fearful of becoming a nuisance to people. what should i do? i should just stop thinking about it maybe move on i guess you have alr. random: Extracted this from a book, " He kissed her again, more passionately, and she pressed against him, losing herself in his embrace. Their bodies locked, as if they had known each other for years. She forgot the fear and pain. She closed her eyes, weightless in the moment. " i want to float i feel like i'm dragged down by my heavy heart.
still remembering the chinese orals during o'levels was pretty nervous and worried this time round things seem much much tense this time it doesn't even feel like an official examination i sort of just remembered about it yesterday night then went in unprepared fortunately it was alright i found it even eaiser than the qn i got during the o'levels! haha. random: the day is over just like that i can't believe how time passes so fast.
went to changi airport with xiao ting again can't believe how much words we have to say to each other. we talk practically about everything but we have 2 topics mainly. the last time we went there we were talking about the same 2 things just that now things have changed it has really changed a whole lot especially for xiao ting mine seems to be the same though... almost. but i wish things were how it were though it seemed better then. sometimes regreting has no solution to things but somehow i just can't stop regreting i guess it's part of my train of thought. random: really miss you guys i miss the support i had from you guys at least that stopped my tears from flowing stopped me from thinking all the time kept me busy.
in the blistering winds two hearts beat together which two you ask are in the state of sleepless slumber one searching for the other seeking in the sea of millions how is that possible when we beg for returns granted i take some for leaving a flaw in my search when the one is just near for it my heart doesn't urge pestering my courage to reach out for my desires out stretched to find that it's the furthest. leaving from the warmth i've begun to stand in the cold rain numb as loniless creeps in all alone losing sane surrounded by hundreds in silent company still in pursue never heard, my plea. my smile is lost in the sea of millions in anxiety i wait please return.
没有风 云以为自己可以慢满移动 没有你 我以为世界照常转动 直到光 照不到我那半隐居的窗口 直到爱 叫醒我隐藏起来的脆弱 其实我爱着你 只是我骗自己 我要的世界 原来在你眼里 其实我抗拒你 再找到更多的证明 那干了的泪 原来在你眼里 转了弯 而以为就能找到那面大海 走得远 而以为就只有这双脚会酸 直到雨 告诉我一个人撑伞的孤单 知道爱 推倒了在我面前的勇敢 其实我爱着你 只是我骗自己 我要的世界 倒影在你眼里 其实我抗拒你 再找到更多的证明 那干了的泪 原来在你眼里 爱着你 我懂了不再骗自己 那明天的我 站在等你相遇 p.s. if you can't figure out anything you are seeing, please encode it with unicode.
 i will remeber these moments forever it means so much more since lao shi's leaving i still can't believe how everything's over i miss you guys alr i miss training on the weekends eating bread drinking bubble tea how we just love peppermint milk those were the moments.
i stand in both relief and shock in relief because it is finally over everything that we have worked so hard for is finally accomplished. in shock because it is finally over everything has passed so fast. i don't want the next year to come i don't want to grow up i just want to savour these moments as long as i can. no matter how tired i was no matter how my eyes couldn't barely open i wanted to let the moments with you guys last longer i wanted the feel of stepping on the competition mat to stay the glory, the pride and the excitement most importantly, the stress. i did the best i could i swear though i didn't bring home any trophy i've won the emotional battle i can say that the routine i did today i one of my best i ever did to be able to achieve that personal best it is a good enough reason to remember this event. to recall many years later remembering back how enjoyable it was. recalling the pain, the sweat and the company. the company... 6 of us. though with many dislikes of each other we tolerated and it brought us here where we are now. i will always remember the days when we were training so hard the tears we cried the rain that fell the horrible issues we had to seek a way to solve it. the gifts we gave and receive the love we had for each other the support from each other the screams the laughters the whines and cries in pain. these will never leave my memory. goodbye 2006 R.Gymnastics Competitions A-division.
my heart seems to race against time mind never leaving the image of the stadium never leaving the sounds of my routine music. i tried to seeked comfort i tried to find something that can stop my heart from beating so fast i tried to find some consolation i tired to get rid of the emptiness i feel today when i stepped into the cold house. i tired to find all these in your voice. i tired to stop those tears from coming down i looked in the skies to prevent those tears from falling yet they did yet they defied my will and fell down my face leaving a sore cut in my heart.
omg time really flies. it's just the day after tomorrow that we will go up on that mat. the one that causes us to be so tired physically and emotionally stretched. like what mina has said today... "Now, we say that comps are 2 days later. Just about 12 hours more, we'll say that comps are tomorrow. And the day after, we'll say comps is here! And on that day, just about 5 hours later, we'll say oh my gosh, comps are over!" how true... we have waited and trained so much for this day i'll treasure all the times with you guys they really taught me alot. jia you!
i'm pretty happy today =) cause i cheng gong most stuff and i did my starfish! yea! on the other hand i feel bad being happy cause i know you are not, ele cheer up things will turn out better one. all you have to do is believe in yourself i know how it feels when you really thought you could do it but then things just seem to go the other way when it's a bad day am i right? i had that feeling before it feels as if everything is against you no matter how hard you seem to try no matter how much you practice over and over again when shang chang you seem to lose everything. no matter how bad the day was try to smile and be happy it helps you know like alot sometimes it may take alot of energy to place a smile on your face when you are really down, i know. but when you finally bring out that energy you'll realise that everything's not that bad actually. at least that works for me. maybe you could try smiling? it not only makes you look happy and enjoying but it gives you the confidence even when deep down you feel like you can't do it. so peeps. SMILE! mina, sorry about the pao thing. didn't mean to waste food... jia you guys just a few more days to go!
tomorrow's the start of this really important thing 6 people have been working really hard for i'm feeling a little frenzy and nervous but it will pass... hopefully. tomorrow we get to leave classes at 10! but then again, we'll be recieving our papers and i'm quite curious about my marks. today we got back chinese paper which was the easiest paper in the whole of mid-yr examinations so of course the marks weren't that depressing since its a double digit starting with 7. the rest might appear SLIGHTY more screwed that's all. right then i'd better rest early for the big day tomorrow! nights everyone.
went all over chinatown today just to find hair accesories we practically walked everywhere of chinatown alr my legs are feeling quite numb and painful from all that walking. sigh. shi chang di is in 2 days and it doesn't feel like it i'm seriously not prepared. how to compete like that?!?! i'll just try my best half of my mind tells me that just try your best do your best and everything will be fine where else the other half just fills with : "oh shit. i'm like so not going to get anything. this sucks." it just really sucks to not be good at anything.
THIS IS THE END OF THE ROAD FOR THIS YEAR AND WE WILL GET THROUGH IT WITH OUR BESTS. so gymmers smile for there's tomorrow cry for there's joy tear for we know we have won laugh for it's going to be over really soon. all the best WE CAN DO IT! we have been through so much together can't bear to part with anyone of you there's so much i've learnt in the process and there's no words that can describe the joy you peeps bring to my life thanks for being a part of my life always being there supporting me i've been through really rough times and so have you peeps knowing that i have all you guys backing me up really saves me from being drowned in my own solemness and being able to place a smile on my face. what's at the end is not really important it's the process that matters it's all the fun and as much pain we endured that makes us strong and united. from the bottom of my heart... thank you.
thanks for being the XIAO PENG YOU! it definately made life during training more interesting jia you! i've seen you alot since primary school and i defiantely am going to see more of you the next 2 years =) we have been through the ups and downs gone through the total same route thanks for being there the end of the year is reaching this means PROMOS IS COMING AND WE BOTH KNOW HOW SCREWED WE ARE! (ok... maybe only me!) yup so all the best for the rest of the year we should go study together when training stops! jia you jia you jia you jia you jia you jia you jia you jia you jia you ...
ling yi! we've been through all sorts of gym shit since sec 1 and we are going to go through it for some time thanks for being there we have really been though rough times things may not have been how you wanted in sec sch but things will be better these 2 years so cheer up you are good in gym so jia you for comps! i know we've haven't really been studying so it's time for us to catch up after comps! you are not stupid you can do it! all the best for promossss!!!
kassy!! i'll miss your high shrilling screams when we stop training (ya right) thanks for being there always telling all your funny crappy jokes that adds more life to trainings. (though you can get irritating for always saying your sorries) you are still an important figure in gym and we will work towards the same goal next year again. jia you i know you can do it you are good at it don't discourage yourself you do gym beautifully so stop saying you don't. if i ever had been irritating as well sorry my bad. all the best for PROMOS!
michELEanor! cheer up girl! even when there's troubles ahead cause only when you smile and raise your chin then you can solve anything and everything that you will face in the future don't be too stressed up there's no point it only make things worse don't you think so? smiling may not be the solution but it's always the start to find one. thanks for all the small notes and your patience all these while good luck for your A levels! p.s. you look better when you smile so please do.
thanks for being there always guiding me along this tough road thanks for understanding why i pang sei all the time sorry for doing as such as well. wish you good luck for your A levels hope you can score well i know you can just tell yourself YOU CAN DO IT! i'll always be here too! so you can come find me anytime any day even when you are no longer in cj or gym. all the best for competitions i know you can do your best you have worked really hard for this and i know you can get through this beautifully. smile and things will fall into place!
today i had my best training since i started i cheng gong my whole tao made some impromtu actions that didn't cost a single mark cheng gong my illusion during my tao that's like more than enough to make me really happy today. in addition i cheng gong BOTH apparatus! no one can be happier than me today i'm just in the best of my moods =) hopefully i can perform equally well or even better during competitions! it's just one more week to go then we can sigh in relief together and cry missing training together as well... i'm thinking whether to watch soccer tonight but tomorrow got to meet gym people to buy scrungy then should i watch the finals tomorrow france vs. italy but on monday i've got training which means i can't be tired on monday *sigh* don't know how?!?!?! nevermind i'll figure out a way =) JIAYOU EVERYONE!
going out for dinner later for my mom's birhtday dinner. FAT- been eating alot the past few days esp. yesterday went to plaza hotel at brasserie plaza for dinner. (how the heck do you pronounce that anyways) it's buffet so ate quite ABIT. today i watched superman. halfway i felt that i need to go to the toilet though the movie was ending i went totally forgot about the restroom in the movie theatre i headed out for one. when i looked up on the way out of the restroom i saw this guy who is damn familiar then xiaoting called my name no wonder it was kent haha!! i rushed back to the movie theatre after that mangaged to catch the ending(i'm fast man) then came home alr gotta get ready to go out for another scrumptous dinner! =)
am i imagining it or whenever i come online you put your msn on away? can you please tell me what are we now? together? i feel like i'm stuck in between everything i plucked all my courage and asked you everything online and then you said your comp hanged. when am i going have the courage to say it again how am i going to pick up all my emotions and let it fall all over again? can you please tell me? what are we going to do about this relationship i just feel so... nowhere. maybe you don't maybe you have totally given up like long ago. but i don't know so i need you to tell me i've got no more strength to gather to ask you anymore. if we are going to leave it just like that it's going to turn cold or maybe it already has. PLEASE tell me. i'm dying to know. i'm falling into pieces already.
today there's this tibs bus driver in bus no. 190 from town to raffles town club bus stop the no. plate is TIBS898J at 3.25 P.M. he's damn LKAJSDLKHFSAH lah. it's like we rang the bell a few times cause we couldn't hear it. it's like there's 6 of us there none of us is deaf! then the stupid "bus stopping" sign can't tell if it was lighted or not. we are not blind either then he not only scold us la he didn't open the damn door for us. he's damn childish then we had to walk all the way to the front then even when we alighted he still yelled at us. don't know what's his problem man. i raise the complaint online alr hopefully they'll read it =) i pray with all my might that comps will be 5-1 then maybe at least... *sigh* can't believe how i can be good at only that and be the lousiest being good at it. putting that all behind my mid yr papers are slowly releasing got one of the section of my chem paper today *phew* i didn't fail it =) probably one of the only things that i was happy about today. WOW~ i'm like damn happy. i'm like screaming for help in a deep well my voice being unable to travel outwards stuck in the well, in me. i need all the help i can get but who will come and rescue me?
It wasn't just me Don't you see? You can't schedule love.
so many things are going on don't know where to put my concentration on. right now, i really just need support moral support. i'm just feeling rather tired it's just everything chunk up together. i just need someone to sustain that smile on my face or rather create that smile on my face. somehow i use up all my energy in the day leaving none for the night. i just break every single night falling asleep with watery eyes and a blocked nose. can't believe how time flies the holidays seem to be over in a snap felt like i didn't fully utilise those days i guess i do take things for granted. i know there are many others who are feeling sort of stressed in the same way now. we'll get through this together! i know we will not only that, we will sit down in the future missing all these times all the times we've shared all the hardwork we've put in all the faith we had in each other. i just know it. i'm just so afraid always so afraid afraid that things have changed a whole lot without me noticing afraid that things can never go back to where we've started.
1.What time are you starting this? ::-- 8.38 P.M. 2.Date of birth? ::-- 21st December 1989
16. Last person you went out to dinner with? ::-- YuanShan
19.What are you listening to right now? ::-- Imagine Me Without You on my blog. 20. Do you have a crush on someone? ::-- Nope.
23. How long have u been together? ::-- including today, 6 months and 19 days, if we are still together now. 25. Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? ::-- DUH NO. 26. What are your favorite colors? ::-- None in particular. Maybe pink or purple? 27. What is your favorite animal? ::-- Dogs. 28. Do you have any birthmarks? ::-- Not any major ones.
30. Do you get online a lot? ::-- Almost everyday? 31. Are you shy or outgoing? ::-- Outgoing. 32. Do you hate school? ::-- I hate it for the lessons but love it for the people. 33. How easily do you trust people? ::-- Pretty easily.
36. Do you drink a lot of water? ::-- No. I'm always getting heaty with ulcers. bleah.
39. Are you a role model? ::-- Highly doubt so. 41. Do you get annoyed easily? ::-- Not really.
43. Do you get along with your parents? ::-- Now, yes. used to give them so much trouble when i was younger.
45. Have you ever ran away? ::-- From my own feelings, yes.
47. Do you like getting dirty? ::-- dirty as in?!?!? haha.
50. Would you ever date someone younger than you? ::-- Nope.
51. How many rings until you answer the phone? ::-- Usually about 3?
59. What do you need now? ::-- Moral support from people.
P.S. this is stolen from huiren who stole it from kass AGAIN.
[x] broken a promise [x] made a new friend [x] fell in love [ ] fell out of love [ ] done something you swore never to do [x] lied [ ] stole [ ] went behind your parents back [x] cried over a broken heart [x] disappointed someone close [x] hidden a secret [x] pretended to be happy [ ] got arrested [ ] kissed in the rain [ ] slept under the stars [ ] gotten in a fight [x] met someone who changed your life [x] met one of your idols [ ] changed your outlook on life [ ] sat home all day doing nothing [ ] pretended to be sick [x] left the country [ ] almost died [ ] drank myself retarded [x] lost someone close to you [x] been to the hospital [x] gotten closer to someone [ ] streaked [x] cried over someone [x] broken up with a gf or bf [ ] given up something important to you [x] talked on the phone all night [x] learned something new about yourself [ ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it [x] made a change in your life [x] made a total fool of myself [x] met great people P.S. this is stolen from huiren who stole it from kass
it simply just looks like you are interested anymore i don't know what you are thinking alr la and i don't have the energy to find out alr i don't have the emotional strength anymore.
just for that few minutes i saw you only just for that short period of time still i was happy to see you. i know it may mean nothing to you it's just a few minutes but we haven't met for so long. i'm just afraid that after such a long time it'll be cold.
watched garfield 2 today garfield is SO CUTE. and this time there's two of them!!!! shopped ard today bought quite a bit of stuff! keep spending money *sigh* i'm really damn spendthrift.
i'm beginning to see that i should appreciate you after listening to so many things knowing so many relationship problems it's hard not to appreciate you knowing that you did all that for me. thanks for everything you've done. i just want you to know i appreciate it. i've come to realise that i do take somethings for granted but at that point of time i just don't see it. how then can i turn back time to let you know thank you.
wipe away your tears. don't let him see them.
 The thing about the love between children is that they don't worry about what comes up next... They just love and enjoy each other's company. Do we resemble them anymore? Tell me we do.
went for training i really sucked today not joking and i bet no one can rebut me about today went for piano then met them at the foodcourt decided to play mahjong so they came my house mina and ele came cause they were attracted by CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE made by ys, jy and me! not bad huh the cake is better than last time the previous one was a bit "ni" so this time we added chocolate! yummmm.... *licks lips* played mahjong alittle then ys remember this stupid game we played 1 to 2 years ago. this is damn lame we took poker cards hid it ard the house and the others had to find it wow can't believe how lame we are! so yup. then we played for awhile then they had to leave leaving behind all the mess for me to clear sian... it's alright la. guess i'll have to clear it up then =)
silent noises ringing in my ears shrouded in the crowds i am in the midst of the music struggling to hear in vain. booming silences floods my surrounding drowning all possible sound closing in on me overwhelmed with the buzzing silence as i am.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |
