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i hate work i hate admin is it damn bad, to do things half-heartedly maybe i should just not do it all together. i hate myself for having no motivation. i hate myself for giving excuses all the damn time.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! this is the first year not spending valentines in school so i didn't prepare any gifts this year its the first year in many that i haven't rack my brains to give something special oh wells. i miss school :( there's another reason to celebrate today! HAPPY WATERMELON DAY. you don't want to know why. ahahah. if you really really really want to know why, go http://ladedaz.diaryland.com/ to ask. TMR IS BTT DAY die. if i fail its going to be damn mahlu but i only like read the book twice and its not even memorising its like READING, SCANNING THROUGH... you know. AHHHHH. i REALLY hope i don't damn it fail this damn it btt. today is celebration tmr better be too.
first two days of chinese new year is over in a glance i didn't even feel like i went through it. shucks i remembered it being much more fun and exciting in the past. work resumed back to normal and that kinda sucks RAHHHH. rumoured that results will be out in march WHICH IS GOOD cause i don't want to get it go away.
watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYuIg7Tnc7g#r7NzU_CiUIw and there's a comment that goes... and fyi, SINGAPORE AINT PHILIPPINES OR MALAYSIA. If u are implying that people in the same region are the same, i would call all of you the chinese people from CHINA. AHAHAHA.
cny is coming which means more figures in my bank and more smiles on my face. on top of that pay day has come yayyy i love pay days it makes me a really happy girl. and i've got not much work this week which means more time for play and less time doing work. things are getting better. its nice looking at a schedule not packed with work :) new clothes to wear more time to spare why frown?
i don't know a shit what i'm doing now. i'm like doing everything halfway not giving my best at all in any aspect and its just so shitty knowing i've got nothing done in the end that i've got nothing achieved in the end nothing to make these months memorable NOTHING. frustrating to feel like i'm so busy but i'm not putting my best effort into it and end up wasting my damn bloody time. i need to do something about it and stop wasting my life away. on top of that a's is like coming out i bet its coming out the week after this. and if my results comes out and gets me no where i'm fucking screwed.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |