Saturday, September 30, 2006
because i'm a girl




maybe one day if someone would be my eyes
and if they would be the one to hold my hand when i fall
maybe only then i would fall in love.

Divulged at 12:25 AM

sore feet.


went to mambo at lucky plaza today for class pool outing
huiren learnt how to play
i won brandon and got trashed by daryl
after that xiaoting, terri, huiren and i went ot play the table soccer
its damn funny la
we were like screaming until someone came to tell us off.HMPH.
oh wells
then after that we headed to food republic to eat.
it was sinful!
i ate this toast with overspilling chocolate on it.
gosh. i'm getting piggish.
after that huiren and i went to walk ard while the rest went to watch movie
i swear me and huiren walked alot alot
our feets are really really sore.
we walked at wisma then went to far east then walked a whole lot more.

after that we met up with laoshi and miss giam.
we went to eat at swensens
another round of sin.
in between that eating session
me and hr half walked half ran to wisma
omg, by the time i was back at wisma i was sweating la!

after that we decided to go home
when we were walking towards the train station
there were this 2 guys walking behind mina and ele
they were like staring at them la
what perverting pple.
after that when we got to the train station got another pervertic guy la
gosh, these pple like surf porn at home not enough ar.

tomorrow's gonna be a really emotional day
i don't want to cry.
laoshi! don't go. i don't want you to.
where's the good in the goodbye?

Divulged at 12:00 AM

Thursday, September 28, 2006
the hardest thing to say is goodbye.


pw early in the morning in school
its damn sao xing
esp. when h2 papers ended alr.
my grp is damn efficient i tell you
we sort of like finished one draft even before we went for the pw session.
cause daniel said his printer jam so cannot print =(
then we had to just wait for him to retype again
then we handed it up
we were the first grp to complete!!!
i ended up sleeping and slacking ard there for about 3 hours waiting for mou mou peeps. 0.0

watched a movie in the afternoon
its called harold and kumar at the white castle.
its freaking lame
wahaha
pretty much like euro trip that sorta show.

after that we went to town to eat dinner
xiaoting's student called her half and hour after tuition was supposed to start to tell her its canceled. 0.0
so she joined us for dinner
what the hell.
i wouldn't want a student like this man
xiaoting acting nice again and says its alright.
wahahha

after that we went kino walked for awhile
i'm finding for nice love ballads or some slow calming piano scores
anyone can recommend me some?

anyways tmr is another class outing in town
after that is laoshi's last outing
omg
i'm afraid that we will all cry sending her off tmr
gosh.
can't believe comps and everything is like over
and i may not be able to see laoshi again.
THAT'S DAMN SAD!! =(
its gonna get emotional at that moment in the airport.
i really don't want to part with her
and i know all of us don't.
its really sad
its like we've been through the tough times
the sucky times when *beep* coach come and bitch around.
and many many other events that made us so so bonded.
guess saying goodbye is part of life.

Divulged at 10:32 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006
what remains?


time passed really fast
its the end of promos.
wells, almost.
can't believe how i was dreading promos and how i was whining when it came.
now its over
what's done is done.
there's nothing i can do now to save whatever i missed out

congrats everyone =)
we've all worked hard.
no matter how much we studied
no matter how much we practise
we all deserve a pat on our backs!
*pats*

the year is almost over
leaving only just months to the end
we can't turn back time
and what we couldn't accomplished can only remain as a regret.
oh wells
even if we regret
there's nothing we can do anymore.

Divulged at 10:06 PM

Tuesday, September 26, 2006
the final hurdle


today went to xiaoting's house to study
went to yishun to buy PAO PAO for her
not bad
now i know of another place to buy PAO PAO!

we watched wo cai on tv for awhile when i got to her house
there was this melon that melon that was selling for 1800 taiwan dollars
then there was this pencil that was 4900 taiwan dollars.
its madness i wonder who will buy them.
wahahaha.
after that we settled down and did some math
at least i managed to get some formulars in my head.

looks like tomorrow's the final paper
at least it feels like
the next paper is like 9 days later
that gives me quite alot of time to study.
hope all goes well for every tomorrow.

i really hope no one gets retained or kick out
its like my sch life includes them and i don't want them to be out of it.
jia you everyone!

Divulged at 10:40 PM

where's my direction?


yesterday i was struggling with the paper
hopefully i could do at least half.
looks like i really didn't study enough
if i'm gonna fail it i think i'll really be quite dissapointed.
sigh
i'm really a lazy bum.

had tuition yesterday
didn't really do much though
just found out that i lost 11 marks at the chem paper
that's not very comforting.
oh wells.
tmr's one of the last 2 papers
and even if i was to do anything today
looks like it all depends on what i did the last few months.

sometimes i feel helpless
just don't know what to do anymore
i don't know even know what to do with my life.
i seem to be aimlessly studying
just don't know what i'm studying for.
what do i want in life?

Divulged at 11:12 AM

Sunday, September 24, 2006
i think we've fallen in love with macs or something.


looks like that's the don't-know-how-many'th time we've been to that macs at Bk.
everytime we go without a jacket we'll freeze
this time round we learnt our lesson and came really prepared.

look how harkworking we are!
whoops. just some occasional rubbish here and there la.
can't possible do work every minute every second.
(although in this state, we are supposed too!)

then we got really bored and tired of studying
so look what happens :

xt won!

but she was using two hands la.
but still...
commendable =)

i think white specs are becoming a trend esp. in Bk now.
solely in macs, they have 2 staff wearing white specs
the worse thing is they both keep walking ard together.
they probably look like brothers or something - inseperable.

we started studying at about 7 plus and went to amos's house at 3A.M.
slept till about 11 plus then went down to eat then study again
this time we went KFC
what a change of enviroment
at least it wasn't that cold!
i went home soon at about 4 plus while amos and xt stayed there to study.
yan shens
tomorrows chem
good luck everyone!

Divulged at 8:16 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006
night out


had to wake up freaking early today for a chinese paper
what the hell.
stayed in school studying after that
then went for piano.

after that i went out with yuanshan
wahaha.
last minute yue her out one.
when she was da-qi-kong-ing with her mom i studied! yea!
i'm damn hardworking sial.

met up with her at cine
we watched THE HOST
omg.
damn exciting la
we were like grabbing each other's hands during the movie.
its not about the monster being scary
but more like it keeps popping out suddenly giving both of us heart attacks.
its quite a good movie
i recommend it =)

met anthea in the theatre
then we met up outside after the movie
walked anthea to far east shopping centre to meet her *ahem* friend *ahem*
sat at coffee bean
talked for quite long
then anthea decided to go
so me and yuanshan also left
and went to the 7-eleven at far east plaza
there was pretty happening too
there like quite alot of people
at least more than i expected considering its at the end of orchard road at some hidden corner.
after that we took the usual path home, NR1.
haha.

looks like i have to work doubly as hard tomorrow!
jia you everyone.
left a few more days only!

Divulged at 2:32 AM

Thursday, September 21, 2006
the sour history of today's blues.


yesterday i didn't do much
felt really guilty and hope this emotion will bring me through today with much more results.

went to xiaoting's house yesterday to study
i told her i would find my way there
so i ying cheng don't call her and walked one big round.
wahahha.
i think i walked quite alot la
its like walking that whole estate.
wahahha.

at first, i went xiaoting's house cause was attracted to the pao pao at her house nearby BUT they were like pretty kiam siap with their ingredients.
oh wells, i doubt i'll ever go there again.
after that we headed back to xiaoting's house.
the lift was DOWN!
so we had to take another lift and climb a couple of floors.
after that we watch xiaoting's jap video's
after like 1 to 2 hours we decided to get down on our work.
studied for about 2 to 3 hours then we went to eat dinner
we actually intended to study after that
but our weak determinations cause us to be sitting in front of the computer AGAIN
so watched alot of vareity shows till 11 plus then left for home
when i went home of course i didn't do any work
what the hell
i'm pretty screwed.
0.0

oh wells
hope today will be a better day.

thanks to those who have gave me words of comfort and wishes
it made me feel that i have something to lean on at this crucial period.
thanks loves.

Divulged at 10:50 AM

Kamen




under the influence of mou mou ren.
i've found Tackey and Tsubasa quite attractive.

Divulged at 10:41 AM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006
awaiting


just one more week...

today just finished econs paper
hopefully everything went well
hopefully i wrote everything that was neccessary
oh wells...
its like over and there's nothing i can do about it anymore.

though today was only the end of the econs paper
leaving the heavy subjects of math and chem
but my heart certainly felt much much lighter.
today's exam paper took away that burden i kept for so long.

just had tuition
thanks gerard for all your time
thanks everyone else who always come down to crash
it makes studying much more interesting.

有些事情是勉强不到的
我们无论有多少悲伤之处
只能压制自己的情不自禁
收回掉泪原因

Divulged at 11:30 PM

Monday, September 18, 2006
one down


today's over
everyone's just dreading tomorrow to come
really can't wait for all these to be over
at least next wed.
at that point of time
i think i'll just go mad!

tomorrow's another challenge to handle
thanks to eleanor, gerard, cheng yuan, daniel, terri, brandon and jasmine ang
thanks for your lovely wishes.
they certainly helped =)
hope everything goes well for you guys as well.
thanks to everyone else who gave me their best wishes.
all the best eveyone!

may the courage and strength in us
empower and reveal our wisdom to pass
this very challenge that lies ahead
that we will not fear and bravely await.

Divulged at 7:28 PM

Sunday, September 17, 2006
this is it.


tomorrow's the big day
the start of promos
a sign as the end of this year.
starting with G.P.
omg.

just came back from a study stayover again
surprisingly i didn't get tired till 5 plus in the morning!
i sort of finished with econs.
still got like loads others to do!
yesterday we got really bored at macs till we played lame games like za and ji ko pa.
wahaha.
oh wells.

get well soon xt.

jia you everyone!
hope you peeps will do well
all the best
loves.

Divulged at 9:06 PM

Saturday, September 16, 2006
superstar round 2


today i went to tpy with yuanshan to support john at superstar!
john, you did your best alr.
cheer up =)
smiling pictures get abit too boring sometimes :

we went to walk ard today and i saw this cute cow!

didn't study much today. shucks.
later gonna study! hopefully would be able to concentrate, if not i'm so screwed. jiayou everyone!

Divulged at 8:12 PM

Friday, September 15, 2006
Zhi Dui Ni Shuo




by mdc peeps - John, Jonathan, Mark and Charles.
not bad - MUST WATCH.

Divulged at 8:30 PM

xiaoting, this is for you.


One. Think of 10 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they’ve gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them and let people guess which the five false ones are!

01. I once tore my sister's clothes once when i was younger cause she didn't let me wear them.

02. In primary school, my form teacher calls up my parents at least once every year.

03. I gave away a kiss to someone i barely knew.

04. Sometimes i can't stop imagining of ghost stuff when i'm alone at home.

05. There was once i stuffed an eraser into a girl's mouth in primary school.

06. I can sleep anywhere, literally.

07. When i was younger, there was a period when i kept taking things from shops without paying.

08. I cried in primary school because i couldn't qualify for sports day in long jump.

09. I tired smoking one stick of digarette when i was younger but i didn't get addicted to it.

10. I stole my maid's money once when i was in primary school.

11. I cut my eye once when i was playing catching in primary school.

12. When i was in secondary school, i called up a want-to-make-friends line.

13. I made a teacher angry in primary school till she cried once and never came for lessons for a long period after that.

14. I once met up with this person from IRC and i rejected to be his girlfriend when he asked.

15. I throw things out of my window whenever i'm feeling really pissed.

guess which ones are false and msg me!

Divulged at 1:59 PM

Thursday, September 14, 2006
if i should fall.


another normal day of school with identical timetable as the last 3 days =(
after school today i went down to the canteen to settle some money matters and to buy food as well then went up to company xiaoting to study.
at the canteen
i could barely see anything
white spots were like blocking my vision
when i typing message, i couldn't even see what i was typing! 0.0
then walking on the way up i felt like i was gonna faint!
in class i couldn't see much
i felt like really sick
tried doing some math but ended up sleeping cause i couldn't even see what i was writing on the paper!
when i woke up there were like people painting outside my class
and the paint smell was really suffocating
i felt like i couldn't breathe.
after that we headed down to the canteen
stayed there for awhile, ate
then left for my house
felt so much better after eating panadol at home.

had tuition just now
xiaoting complained that she was really scared.
sometimes whining and complaining helps relieve that fear in you but then again if you don't do anything about it there's no point in all that complaining.
so do something about it.
there's no point if you lie to yourself that you are trying too.
i don't know how much you are trying
but looks like you have to try harder.
this is it.
promos is here.
don't let your parents or anyone else down
more impotantly, don't let yourself down.

you know i'm really tired
i feel like i have nothing to back me up
that i'm standing all alone
there's no where to lean
no where to hide
sometimes i feel like just leaning backwards
slacken my muscles
but somehow i know if i do
i will just fall and hit the cold hard floor.
i must stand strong
only then i can face anything that comes my way
we all should.

Divulged at 11:35 PM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006
counting down.


today i went to bishan library to study with taa from 2-6 p.m.

by the time we got there
all the tables were taken
so we sat with this lady
that meant we had to keep really really quiet
so we finally made use of our calculator!
wahaha... we are really quite bored.

after that yuanshan came to join us
not long after, xinrong came down as well
hahaha.
became a mini gathering alr.
studied for awhile then xinrong was really really hungry
so we went to eat.
yuanshan was speaking of mou mou ren the whole time
maybe i should go find out more about him for her.
wahahaha.
but then maybe he has a girlfriend alr =(

oh wells.
after dinner we walked ard J8 for a while
bought a shirt
then left for home.

melancholy.

Divulged at 10:23 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006
stressed out-


just finished tuition!
gerard teaching with much patience:

xiaoting and amos left my house half sleepy and half high
xiaoting drank a cup of vodka cocktail while amos drank 2 shots.
seriously, xiaoting can't hold her liquer well
whahaha
she left smiling like really wide.
she was really high la. talk to her about something only she laugh
what the hell
looks like everyone is really stressed out.

being part and parcel of life
we would all look back in the near future
thinking what fun we had
but if we can't get through this
we would think back in regret
don't let that happen
i don't wish for that to happen to anyone
if we would just put that extra effort now
we would surely feel that sense of achievement soon
all the best everyone
pull up all your socks
its going to be over soon.

Divulged at 11:38 PM

first time at bishan library


today went to bishan library after school to study.
it was pretty cool, there were like coloured compartments sticking out that were like pretty cosy.
( just the perfect place for couples though)
wahaha.

we sat at a table though
studied for a few hours then headed back home for tuition.
perry and amos coming to crash AGAIN.
haha.
i don't mind la.
it makes tuition more relaxing and fun too =)

oh wells
gotta go get ready for tuition alr.

may the winds blow to my liking
that my fate may turn to face you.

Divulged at 6:52 PM

Monday, September 11, 2006
dampened spirits


a rainy day
just brings everything down
first day of school after one week of holidays, really didn't feel like going to school today. oh wells. can't skip it, i shouldn't anyways. lessons have been regulated and everyone ends at 1. that's something that'll cheer me up everyday. on the other hand, i still have alot to do before promos and that's like 1 week away.
at least i have studies to keep me away from my emotions
i fell down today at some staircase in school. really bad luck! hopefully the good luck saved is for promos! when i fell, there were like quite alot of people studying there. joce was there too. it was really exbarrassing. even the uncle mopping the floor asked me if i was okay. i prob look damn lang bei can. =( i think i sprained my ankle slightly. fortunately we don't have training till weeks later. hope it gets better.

today has been another lizzie day.
xiaoting lend the lizard to victor and he heeded our advice and went to scare amos. and surprisingly, amos was still really scared of it! wahahaha.

can't wait for promos to be over
at least h2's.

may time fly.

Divulged at 3:16 PM

girlfriends


three of us
we walked through the last one year together
not exactly together
considering how our schools are no longer the same
but somehow we came across similar problems
similar headaches and heartaches.

we went into it one after another
and left one after another
happy moments entered our lives
but with it came depressing moments as well.
we have whined about it and complained out loud.
we couldn't keep it in
fortunately we had each other.
tears have been wept
and broken dreams washed away
by the rushing waves at the shore.

hopefully everything else goes well
for the three of us
for we have fought, tried and cried
love you girlfriends.

Divulged at 12:19 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006
100906


today was a usual boring day
wanted to stay home to study
but my sis's friend wanted to take a movie in our house for a project
and i didn't want to be part of it.

ended up going to boon keng to study
met up with ashley first then went to macs to eat.
though only amos ate
then went to amos house.
xiaoting brought this fake lizard to amos's house
and tried to frighten amos
it was damn successful
wahahaha.
evil us.

anyways tried to study for a while
then went down for dinner
after that we decided to go macs study for awhile
on the way there
amos saw this door with a sign, "with roof access"
so we decided to go and see
really can climb on the roof!
though it was only 2nd floor
but i never been on a roof before
the ladder was damn steep
quite scary la!
after that we went to other HDB flats to find more roof access, like those taller ones.
but there wasn't any others that we could open
they were all like locked.
at one of this really old building that was renovated recently
we looked into this flat and saw this really huge alter
omg
it was damn scary
the alter was so huge it sort of like blocked the way until there was barely any pathway left into the house.
there were so many status staring out.
its damn freaky
plus the red glow of the alter
BRRRRR...

in macs...
xiaoting: 我的phone又没有电话了
me: HUH?
xiaoting: my handphone no more batt.
me: repeat what you say just before that.
xiaoting: 我的phone又没有电话了. OH!

wahhaha.
studied for awhile then xiaoting had to go home
anyways it was getting late
so we headed home.

Divulged at 11:41 PM

happy birthday john.


today didn't do much studying
went home at 3 plus 4 yesterday
sometimes when things are not meant to be
just let it go
if we hold on
we are the ones who will get hurt in the end.
and i got woken up today cause my house's aircon spoil!
sian la.
now my aircon is like not cold.
ohs.
i'm sure i wasn't waken up like at 11 plus.
so i didn't really sleep alot.

xiaoting and amos camo over in the afternoon to watch 13 district.
it rocks.
the main lead, leito
damn cool!
the whole show is like a display of freestyle running.

after that xiaoting and i headed down to east coast for john's birthday chalet
went there with yuanshan and jie ying
when there were like only a few people
we were pretty lang bei looking for a bridge kaki
finally, the kaki arrived
we immediately asked him if he plays bridge
and fortunately he does.
so we ended up playing bridge the whole evening.
the two losers had to drink SHOTS.
omg.
i drank like a few shots alr
and its CHIVAS REGAL!
ohs.
i'm sure i didn't become high after that.
jy being emo walked away from the chalet by herself
upon realising that she was gone
we went to find her
three of us walked behind where there were drains.
xiaoting asked us holding up a phone, "whose phone is this ar?"
when me and yuanshan turn back
xiaoting fell into the drain with face flat on the ground
omg.
the phone was scratched.
oh wells
xiaoting apologises to yuanshan with much regret and guilt.
when we found jy at the playground
we went to the beach
we were like crazy people singing really loud
i think we were really high.
people were probably looking at us but we didn't really give a damn.
wahahha.

after a while
we decided to go back to the chalet
we played bridge AGAIN
this time without alcohol.
*PHEW*
if not i would have came home really tipsy.

one of them had a guitar
so we were sort of singing and playing bridge for hours
well
it was enjoyable =)
it was soothing and really comforting
thanks loads to the guitarists and singers there!

we had to leave really soon after that
jieying wanted to go home and emo.
so we left.

sorry john that i couldn't stay
and thanks to the people there for the company and fun!
thanks xiaoting, jieying and yuanshan for going there with me.

guess a day is gone just like that.
why can't we reverse time?
well
i had fun!
no regrets!

confused and determined
please don't break my decision, don't break me.

Divulged at 2:28 AM

Friday, September 08, 2006
080906


really couldnt study much today
went to northpoint to get some stuff
then went to bishan's cartel to study.
somehow my mind was else where
i don't know where
just not there
it lingered over time
minute by minute, the hours went by

on the way back to my house for tuition
when we were on the train
xiaoting did something really retarded.
she smiled at me
and while her teeth were shut
she screamed behind them
so the scream was sort of muffled.
at first i thought she was whining as usual again
but then after that she said to me, "did you hear that scream?"
...
she was really being retarded.
wahahah.

anyways
had tuition after that
perry, mina and amos came over as well.
before they came
we gave gerard a gift
a special one.
bet he loved it alot
kept staring at it!
[*hint: its flat, with colours on it, most importantly... a girl!]
wahhaha.
he was like so sarcastically excited before we showed him THE GIFT.
after that he was like damn ji dong can!
wahahah...

btw, a recaps of the last tuition
gerard brought subway cookies to my house
then he said, "don't be ke qi, just take."
and he pushed the cookies towards me.
xiaoting then said, "i not ke qi one! don't worry."
gerard in response, "i know, that's why i'm not asking you what!"
wahahha.
lang bei the xiaoting.
please ar... xiaoting, control yourself!

oh wells
another tuition went by
wonder if that was counted productive.
guess the stress is on everyone now
considering how it becomes clear to everyone that we have no more time to study
one more week
that pathetic one more week to read up all we did for one whole year!
to squeeze one year into one week
that's like close to impossible
for all those who started good for you and all the best
for those who haven't even touched the books, oh wells... errr... good luck.
today's almost over
looks like another day is lost to time.

Divulged at 11:23 PM

Thursday, September 07, 2006
My Life Through Songs


1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
And there you have it...

01 How does the world see me? Just A Lil Bit. =(
02 Will I have a happy life? 问自己
03 What do my friends really think of me? 止战之殇.
04 Do people secretly lust after me? Imagine Me Without You. (??)
05 How can you be happy? At The Beginning With You.
06 What should I do with my life? 男生女生配(maybe i should marry soon?!?!)
07 Why must life be so full of pain? Lose My Breath.
08 Will I ever have children? All I Have.
09 Will I die happy? Shape. (huh?)
10 What is some good advice for me? Till I Get Over You. 0.0
11 What is happiness? 扬眉.
12 What's my favourite fetish? 嫁个有钱人.
13 How will I be remembered? 好好恋爱
14 What is your love life like? Kiss Kiss.
15 What's your life motto? Now That's She's Gone. (what a motto...)
16 What do your parents think of you? 浪漫手机 (must be my phone bills!)
17 What's your favourite hobby? Kiss Goodbye.
18 What does your best friend really think of you? Outrageous. (i wonder if that's true?!?!)
19 What's the worst thing about you? 遇见. (does this mean i give bad first impressions?)
20 Describe your mind. 江南 (have i been watching hzgg too much?)
21 How will you die? Do Something. (can't be suicide)
22 How does your crush feel about you? 莎士比亚的天分 (cool!)
23 What is your wedding going to be like? 庆祝 (definately!)
24 What about your honeymoon? Me Against The Music. (that's pretty happening!)
25 Describe the last day of your life. My All.
26 Why does life suck? Close To You. (errr... no link)
27 Why does life rule? 真命天子 (is that referring to me? =) )
28 What will you be famous for? 月光爱人 (am i that romantic?)
29 What's the craziest thing you'll ever do? I'll Try. (far fetched man)
30 Will you achieve your goals? Super Model. (OMG!)
31 What will your future job be like? 神奇.
32 Your party life? Somewhere In The Middle. (that's a good balance!)
33 Overall, will you be happy? More Than Words.
34 Or will you just deal with it? 珊瑚海 (looks like there's no obstacle i can't overcome!)

the outcome is really quite interesting!
there's many in there that fits perfectly.

P.S. this is taken from HR.

Divulged at 11:00 PM

study stayover


yesterday went town for lunch then went to boon keng to study.
when we went to amos house
xiaoting refused to study
she said, "at __ p.m. wake me up"
amos in reply, "its 5 min to __ p.m."
she responded with, "errr.... half and hour after 5 min later then wake me up." -_-"
i'm sure she went amos's house with the purpose of studying la.
anyways i studied for awhile, so did amos.
then he fell asleep
soon after i fell asleep too!
shit.
by the time we woke up it was alr an hour later!
omg so damn waste of time.

after that we went down for dinner
we went macs to eat
at macs we met this 2 indian guys.
omg.
they are freaking irritating.
say what "white specs..."
what the hell...
then lik keep talking about us.
upon confirming that they were talking about us
i looked at one of them
then he asked me, "yes? do you want anything?"
then i gave him the errrr look and said, "no. nothing."
wahahaha.
then after that they still continue to talk about some crap about us.
then after that amos couldn't stand it
so like looked at them.
then he was like," why? you think you big size i scared ar?"
amos then said to us, " eh! he praised me!"
then the indians were like so ying chen and say what they not praising us... blah blah blah.
wahahaha.
after that we asked the macs manager to come
then the manager just like ask if everythings ok then left
after that the indians left and they were like calling pple down
slowly more and more were like standing in front of macs.
i think cause we sat in macs for too long they pek chek or something then came in like want to pour the drink on amos and said something like you come out that kinda thing
they really had damn bad english la
even our singlish is like a million times better than their so-called-perfect english.
wahahah.
so we went out to talk to them and tried to leave as quickly as possible
i tell you, they are seiously zuo bo pple
one of them was like, "if you got problem, we go somewhere try. if no problem then you go."
?!?!?
what the hell...
so we were like go then go lor, kinda thing.
the whole incident was quite scary and funny also
wahahah.

after that we went to buy our bubble tea then went to the playground at his block
stayed there for quite long
we were like monkeys climbing up and down
wahahaha.
when we finally felt that we should go up to study
it was alr 11.00!!!!
omg.
so we headed up to study
i studied awhile then fell asleep alr
they two don't know romantic what.
stayed up all night!

today morning xiaoting was the first to wake up
then she tried to get us up by using the pillows and whack us
wahahah.
i woke up quite fast
while amos took like quite a long time before he was irritated and decided that he should wake up too!
the whole day went by just like that.
eat sleep study.
awww man.

promos is in one week time!!!!!!!!!
jia you everyone!

Divulged at 7:40 PM

Wednesday, September 06, 2006
i swear i won't


I wouldn’t want to hold your hand
For I’m afraid you won’t let go in the end
I wouldn’t want to call you late at night
Instead, I’d rather see you in the light

I wouldn’t want to say those three words
In fear that it would make you cry
I wouldn’t want to bring you home
For I’m afraid that I’ll make you mine

I’m hoping that you’ll have much white hair
Cause that would mean that its been long
I wouldn’t buy you a brand new album
Instead I’ll make my own with my own songs

I wouldn’t do all that
I swear I wouldn’t
My love for you is in perfect rhyme
Cause I want it to be frozen in time.

Divulged at 12:40 AM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006
another day of studying


went to chem lesson today 1 hr late! 0.0
k b ong didn't say anything though
oh wells.
after that i went thomson to eat prata with terri, xiaoting and huiren
omg. fattening!
after that we headed to thomson plaze BK to study
pretty productive =)

xiaoting actually wanted to go home first then go my house later for tuition
BUT i went to buy some stuff and took really long so she didn't get to go home
and its not my fault! i keep asking her to go home first she don't want.
xiaoting! stop acting nice!
anyways, after that headed for home.
xiaoting, as usual, fell asleep on my couch.
even when gerard came and stared at her.
she still don't want to get up!
wahahaha.

for the second time
mina, ele, perry, alvan and amos came to crash my tuition!
omg.
thankfully i went to eat prata that day
if not i'll screw my math damn badly for promos.
wahahaha.
today's tuition was not exactly very productive
but oh wells...
at least i learnt GRAPH!
OMG
hated that.

i pray for the best for every single one of you
certainly its going to be such a torture
for the next few weeks
but i'm sure if we all try our best
its all worth it no matter the outcome.

Divulged at 11:42 PM

its SLIGHTLY long so don't read it unless you are really bored or you want to know more about me. alot of these things really apply somehow.


Rising Sign is in 06 Degrees Aries
You are a free spirit and you must be first at everything you do. Very energetic, self-assertive and active, things must be done your way. Even though you may feel calm and serene on the inside, you certainly do not act that way. You want to do everything full-tilt, 100 miles per hour! A great competitor, but a poor cooperator -- you must learn how to lose more gracefully. Very self-confident, ambitious and passionate, you radiate positive energy. You are blunt and direct, but at times unfeeling and tactless, especially if anyone offers you any resistance. You fight for your beliefs, but your tendency to act first and think later often causes you much grief.

Sun is in 29 Degrees Sagittarius.
Very fun-loving, spirited and energetic, you have a huge reservoir of physical energy within you that needs to be released. As such, exercise or sports are very important to you. Quite gregarious, you enjoy being with other people, but you tend to avoid emotionally restrictive or intimate relationships. Constantly curious about the broader issues of life, you may at times be quite careless and sloppy about details -- you tend to leap to conclusions before all the facts are in. An avid reader, you are totally enthusiastic about any given subject should it interest you. You are known for being idealistic, generous, sociable, cheerful and very positive!

Moon is in 12 Degrees Libra.
Affectionate, warm and friendly, life must be a "beautiful" experience for you. Unpleasantness should be avoided at all costs. You tend to overlook other people's faults and you would rather give in than fight. You are uncomfortable with strangers, but at ease and sociable with friends and associates. Indeed, you would rather socialize than work -- you can use your prodigious charm to avoid unpleasant tasks. You need the support and assistance of another in order to get you started on any new project -- you are not a self-starter. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent (i.e., lazy). Your refined aesthetic sensibilities attract you to music, dance, art and any other cultured activity.

Mercury is in 19 Degrees Capricorn.
You are a careful thinker, very cautious and conservative. You are quite skillful at organizing, directing and planning activities. Practical and useful things interest you -- you are not attracted to abstract thoughts or ideas. With your tendency to be highly focused and very goal-oriented, you have a good head for business. But beware of a tendency to be narrow-minded and dogmatic. Your sense of humor tends toward being earthy and slapstick crude.

Venus is in 05 Degrees Aquarius.
You are a friendly and outgoing individual, but close relationships are difficult for you to maintain due to your fear that they will cause you to lose your freedom. You attract friends and associates who are exciting, different and sometimes a bit odd. You are popular with others and enjoy working within a group toward group goals.

Mars is in 02 Degrees Sagittarius.
Your every action is motivated by high moral standards and ideals. You will work very hard to improve the lot of the world at large, but you demand action about it -- you do not like to just sit around and talk about doing it in an abstract manner. You like to be where the real action is. You resist mightily any attempts to limit your freedom and you will assist anyone who feels put down and restricted. You are extremely restless by nature -- physical exercise is very important to you if you would maintain your health.

Jupiter is in 06 Degrees Cancer.
You must be emotionally secure in order to grow and develop. You are happiest when your family and community support and nourish you and boost your morale. Whether your childhood experiences of love and emotional dependability were positive or negative will set the tone for your emotional growth and stability as an adult. When you feel at ease with yourself, you are able to offer assistance to those who need a helping hand.

Saturn is in 14 Degrees Capricorn.
Very serious-minded and mature, you have the ability to take on responsibilities and to carry out important duties. You can also be trusted to be extremely practical and thrifty. A good organizer, you are the ideal one to be counted on to take a clearly defined project through to its logical conclusion. An achiever, you pride yourself on your ability to focus your attention totally on some worthy goal and then attain it.

Uranus is in 05 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your peer group as well, seek out practical solutions to a changing society's attitudes to customs, traditions and authority structures. Your logical and orderly manner of dealing with these matters will result in permanent and carefully planned, but sweeping, reforms.

Neptune is in 11 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 16 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 17 Degrees Aquarius.
As long as someone else (or a group or organization) appeals to your intellectual sensibilities, you'll try to ally yourself with them in some way. You may find that you always seem to get involved with many wide-ranging groups -- so much so that you find it difficult to fit them all into your busy schedule. Your many friends and acquaintances provide you with needed stimulation. You're loyal and fair-minded -- you try to spend time equally with all your friends, never concentrating on just one or two for any length of time. Although probably quite conservative yourself, you're attracted to those who are a bit offbeat or eccentric -- you enjoy watching their minds work.

Divulged at 12:24 AM

Monday, September 04, 2006
don't eat my hearts


if the trump was clubs
and he called for you
you'd play the hearts
if not you're the fool

he'll truimph it up
to cover your loss
and to test your luck
you'll reveal his flaws

if there's absence of trump
you'd play your smallest
in your rescue he'll come
with all he have, the biggest.

card after card
till the very last one
heart after heart
till you're left with none.

i think i'm playing too much of bridge. 0.0

Divulged at 11:50 PM

040906


today i skipped lit lessons
totally slept past the timing to wake up!
then decided to go boon keng to study with xiaoting and amos
i went like super early and waited for them to get there
then we went to the market to eat
the chee cheong fun there not bad ehs
but the portions are really too much
i ate till i was terribly bloated
after that we headed to macs to study.
not bad!
i finished oligopoly and chemical bonding today.
after that ashley and esther came down and took our place
so we went amos house to study instead
studied for a while then headed to my house
cause ele, mina and perry came down to study.
we ended up playing BLUFF!
wahhaha..
damn long never play.
and i think i suck at it =(
played twice lost twice.
what a loser.
after that we played like guessing card games
and i guessed on the dot TWICE!
woot!
after that while eating maggi mee
we played this who-take-biggest/smallest-card-wash-dishes game
and guess which two lost!
the two *ahem* best friends *ahem* xiaoting and amos.
wahahaha.
kk...
joking
no offence.
they left soon after
leaving me and the quiet house again =(
got chem make up tomorrow
hope i can wake up in time this time round.

nights loves.

Divulged at 11:20 PM

Sunday, September 03, 2006
Plainly Love


long lost with the lustre of the sun
disregarded by the sinister moonlight
closed, concluded and impossibly undone
choiceless and shoved into this plight
entirely consumed from flesh to soul
piled dust, the story's become old.

to crinkle and crumble on the cold hard floor
soaked in stupidity and in shame
bashful with pain in being lured
shriveled up hiding away from fame
teary from the dent within
losing that support to lean.

to stand strong at the stormy seas
pugnacious against the teary rush
unwilling to raise any childish pleas
any said would have been hushed
depriving oneself of fear and moving on
there's no turn back, never forlorn.

Longing Of Vivacious Evening
Leaving On Vows Enacted
gone and left with the remaining
bereavement never to be repeated
caught by surpise it always does
re-establishing, brimming in surplus.

Divulged at 11:45 PM

where art thou, thy future.


unnerving
how we can't predict what's approaching in our lives
what we will face or what will become of us
its like taking a step forward
without knowing what in front
like as if we are all blindfolded
its just darkness right up front
there's no support no sign
no sound nor smell that we recognise
its all so unfamiliar
we have grown up to learn
that we shouldn't go to unfamiliar places by ourselves
and yet we always do
we lead ourselves into a trap that we can't get out
and the only way is deeper into the trap
this way we find ourselves sinking
deeper and deeper into things
even when we want to withdraw
somehow it's more than difficult
and close to impossible
maybe that's why we always yearn for someone close
someone to be there
when you enter dark alleys of our lives
someone to give an advice
when we need to choose which road to undertake
but even then, we cannot tell what's ahead
even no matter how much we open our eyes
prying into the future, our future
there's nothing in that vision
just when we thought things are going in that line
it chooses to make a turn and even at that point
we don't know which turn it'll make
left, right?
or back.

Divulged at 10:17 PM

superstar'06


it starts today
with the guys only
and the queue was damn long la.
madness
was at toa payoh hdb hub.
plus it was damn sunny
don't know how the pple can tolerate the heat.

went with jy to support john
supposedly
but ended up walking instead cause it took damn long
when i left toa payoh after 3 hours he's like barely there! 0.0
gosh.
so they postponed it to tomorrow.
if i was in that queue and didn't get to audit today i'll be pissed.
when i say pissed i mean extremely!
what the hell...
then the pple like wasted a day there
time is precious
it is a pity to waste it like that.

what if i don't make it
i mean through promos
what if
there's always that possibility that i won't.
sometimes i wonder if my future will just be screwed up
that i will end up nowhere
i mean even if i could get through promos
it doesn't mean that i can get through my A's.
that's a scary thought.


山无棱,天地合,才能与君绝.

Divulged at 10:06 PM

Saturday, September 02, 2006
krunk hunk


krunk;
went there when there were quite little people
then xiaoting, mina and me were sitting by the fountain, day dreaming.
looked really lang bei.
we waited like really really long
for about 2 hours before the modelling started.
when it finally did
we were all alr quite tired
tired of sitting.
when the models finally came out after this really long robotic dance which i wasn't interested in.
whoops. no offence.
it was quite funny when they came out though
first was perry
he came out with the group
supposedly acting as ah bengs so must like act dao and attitude.
but then perry was on our side
we all laughed cause he looked really ah beng in this tight PINK shirt.
then he was on the stage "umm chioing"
wahahaha.
after that came the cat walk.
first person i knew was amos
he walked out really really stiff
must have been really nervous.
i'm sure he had alot of mo qi with his partner as well.
wahahaha.
after amos came alvan
instead of having atittude
he was like smiling to all of us la.
what the hell....
hahaha.
after the modelling thing we went to dance for awhile.
then it began to get boring
and then we were stoning at the fountain
xiaoting fell asleep!
what the hell...
i can tell she really wants to be sleepy #3
hahaha.
after that we took a really really really really really long walk back to the hotel
then took a really really really really really really long walk back out to catch a cab to my house
in the end, we were all my place.
omg.
it was like 12 of us.
we were like sleeping everywhere.
even at the door also have *ahem* people *ahem* sleeping.
when my parent woke up i think they got a shock at the amt of pple in the living room
wahaha.

looks like i've got lonely nights ahead again
since my parents went batam today
they really know how to enjoy life la.
looks like this daughter of theirs better know how to enjoy life also
ahahah.

Divulged at 3:54 PM

Friday, September 01, 2006
happy teachers' day!


yeasterday the sweet sweet gymmers celebrated teachers day for the sweet sweet gym teachers and coach =)
we went pastamania buffet
not too bad
it was quite cheap la
and the food is really not bad!
must go another day =p
we had so many surprises for the teachers.
first it was the book and paper roses and stars for miss giam
then it was the flowers for miss giam, miss lee and lao shi!
after that we bought a cake for then from coffee bean nearby
at that point we were all so full alr
but it was love food from us they had to eat it!
miss giam requested me to sing for them.
omg
damn paiseh la
i sort zao xia!
=(
but it was fun
there was so many people there
just talking and fooling around
hahaha

during dinner
there was another table celebrating someone's birthday
then when they sang a birthday song
we sang along!
hahaha.
we are really retarded people
the whole outlet seemed like one whole gathering on itself!
it was really fun
i enjoyed myself =)

krunk-
later on.
alittle sian to go
but oh wells, if i don't go MOU MOU REN will kill me.
so yea
guess i'm going.
hope its not too crowded
think it will be though =(
we'll see...

on last wed.
the really damp night.
it was raining like mad at about 5 plus.
xiaoting, alvan, amos,terri and me went boon keng to study.
BUT the busstop to macs at boon keng was unsheltered
so we had to run throught the rain!!!!!!!!


omg, we were really drenched from top to toe
this applies esp. for xiaoting and terri
the shoes i'm holding is xiaoting's and terri's shoe got hole
so there goes
they both had feets soaked in mud and rainwater!
hahaha.
it was madness
the distance from the busttop to the shelter was only a short distance away
but we were like alr soaking by the time we reached the shelter.
after that we stayed in amos's house to study instead
xiaoting and amos ended up watching tv instead claiming that they were studying and watching at the same time.
alvan, terri and me were more hardworking
we went to study at the dining table instead, which was out of sight from the evil tv
but after that when singapore idol start, we all went to watch
how productive huh.wahahaha.
oh wells.
it was a hell of a night study.

Divulged at 2:22 PM