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ahhhhh. i'm starting to procrastinate on FIRST DAY of recess break. THAT'S GREAT. i wanted to pull my cap up with this kind of speed i think i can continue dreaming. i need someone to pull me out to study ANYONE WHO WANTS TO STUDY CALL ME!
its a rather depressing thought to feel helpless to know that i'm prolly not much of a use or more of a bother anyways. sighhh. sometimes i feel like a LL don't understand why everyone just wants to seek approval from another, including me.
i just saw a blue mazda (slightly electric) just beside a comfort taxi in my carpark and i decided, never to buy a blue car or a mazda or worse, BOTH.
valentines day is over. spent it with chubis which was quite a yummy and romantic evening (: school work is REALLY starting to pile up. with like 3 mid term papers to finish by next week which one of it is 2000 words, i'm kinda screwed. slowly inconfident about jap as time passes. ): hope i can do well in it so i can complete JAP 4! and then i can go japan travel!! rice and teck promised to go with me in year 2010. SO EGGGCITING (: p.s. xiaoting, if you read this, our july trip better be to the CORRECT DESTINATION ok. don't later last minute change.
its a fairy tale - an odd one. at the same time, its pretty tragic. tragic to see love ones die one by one and being the outcast of society, he was slowly losing the people to love and the people who loved him being more and more lonely and no one could understand yet die with the ignorance of a child is bliss. its not easy to love oneself for who we really are.
why is saving money so difficult? i have already stopped most of my shopping, stop eating at restaurants, eat breakfast at home but my money seems to run away the moment i put them in my wallet. and lessons beginning to get really dreadful i have long long days, which i don't know how long i can last going for all of them, and i'm beginning to lose concentration during lecture, like now. oh wells. i remember last sem when i stopped going for 3 lectures. well done.
its been the same every year - almost. what am i looking for, why must i, and what's missing? i've been searching but i never seem to get any answer seeked last year, but ended up in tears. float around this year, no luck either. do i even need it? maybe its not that essential as i thought it is. well, by seeing how the last years pass by. i guess its not THAT important but why do i keep probing into that question? when i don't get the answers for it anyways.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |