Friday, June 30, 2006
Aslyn - That's When I Love You
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love youI love you
Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly
And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what
Divulged at 11:01 PM
do you?
i have this hollow feeling in my stomach
unable to understand what you want
do you even want us to exist?
do you want to even be with me?
you removed me from that list
does is mean you want to remove me from your life as well?
you know if you don't want me to be there anymore
you can just tell me.
i just don't know what you want anymore
or maybe from the start i didn't.
Divulged at 9:11 PM
tell me.
then how?
what do you want me to do?
i don't understand you either...
you say silence is not way.
then whenever i want to communicate
i feel sarcasm flying back at me
for whatever i do
i feel as if you are not happy
for whatever i say
you can form words of sarcasm
that's why sometimes i hestitate in talking to you.
no matter what i'm doing
you will mention guys
am i that a flirt in your mind?
like i must go out with guys?
you really don't understand me
tell me
how can i understand you.
tell me
how then will you talk to me without sarcasm.
when was the last time you asked me out?
even yesterday
i was the one that offered.
and you may say that i was busy so nvm
then don't make it sound as if i was the one that cause you to be alone.
i offered
you rejected.
and you can call me anytime to go down
i would
and you know it
all these while i have been travelling so much for you.
and it doesn't matter to me
i've been waiting ard
and i have never complained about it.
cause i really don't mind.
what about you?
i know you are not the one who asked me to
that's why i have no complains
i was willing.
sometimes i do things
thinking whether you appreciate it
whether i should have done things
that way in the first place
since you don't seem to appreciate whatever i do.
tell me then.
what you want me to do?
Divulged at 10:45 AM
i really don't know what you want
what is it that you want?
i really don't know.
maybe i didn't know from the start
i offered
and you rejected it like so many times
so what you expect me to do
and can you don't assume things
i realise you have been assuming things right from day one
remember how i asked you why do guys like to assume things?
you say i'm happy
how do you know?
you are not even with me
can you don't assume things yourself?
don't make assumptions about my feelings when you don't know.
i just think i always look happy on the surface
maybe i sound happy when i try to lighten the mood on the phone
do you even know why i go out nowadays?
i really don't know alr la.
Divulged at 1:13 AM
Thursday, June 29, 2006
long story
a long talk with ys
really really long
all the way from in 855 to yishun
till back to her house
till she walked me backed.
it's really a relief that i'm not the only one who is like that
not being mean
or saying that i like that this way
but i feel comforted that the way i feel is not abnormal.
haven't been talking so long to her recently
glad to know we still share the same thoughts.
all that whining
so long winded
but getting us to no where
may seem useless
but i feel better after saying everything.
sometimes i think i just keep things to myself
i don't say how i feel
what i want
i just hide myself in my own small little world
i want to break through
to see the larger view
but how?
thanks ys
for accompanying me today
gd luck for tomorrow!
all the best.
Divulged at 1:40 AM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
i know i'm not the only victim, but why?
"why is it that the person who can make you smile and laugh, also be the person to make you frown and cry."i agree totally, xt.
Divulged at 8:16 PM
wo zhen de bu dong le la
so now you know...
i wonder what.
tomorrow last day of exams
MATH
omg
there's like still a dozen things i don't understand
at least i managed to grasp some just now
not too bad
thanks peeps
for helping me out =)
go peeps!
esp. those who still got their h1's!
Divulged at 8:07 PM
Monday, June 26, 2006
why has it become like this?
it seems like the last few months just went past like a breeze
i barely can catch my breath
and it sweeps past me.
so many things happened within this short period of time.
no wonder people say the fastest days of our lives are jc days.
it's pretty much true
though these few days seem to past a little slow
the rest seem to fly by.
sometimes i just don't know what to do with things anymore
i thought i was in control
i thought i knew everything
actually i don't.
it's no point understanding me people
cause i don't even understand myself.
thanks to those who tries to understand me
you may and may not have succeeded.
nights to you all.
Divulged at 11:42 PM
a GIRLIE test.
took this from ronald's blog
to check if i'm a girl
haha
some people always say i'm too tomboy to be a girl
bleah
so here goes
[ ] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[ ] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toy as a child were barbies
[ ] my favorite color is purple
[x] i did Gymnastics
[x] i love skirts
[ ] hollister is my favorite place to shop
[x] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] i love chocolate
[x] i've never had a real job
TOTAL:6
[ ] my hair is straightened
[x] i have at least 8 friendster pictures
[x] i usually go shopping once a week
[x] i love to hang out with friends
[ ] i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[ ] i've gone to a tanning salon
[ ] i've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[x] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] i change my icon weekly
TOTAL: 4
[ ] i wear a shower cap
[ ] i would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[ ] i wear mascara everyday
[x] i've been or am on a diet
[ ] bathing suits are adorable
[ ] i don't know the diff. between a sheep and a goat
[ ] big sunglasses are hott
[ ] i have gotten my nails done
[x] i own over 10 purses
TOTAL: 3
[x] MTV is one of my favorite channels
[ ] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[ ] i love to have other girls do my hair
[x] i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x] i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[x] carnivals are so fun!!
[ ] summer is THE best season
[ ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[ ] pianists are so hot.
TOTAL: 4
[x]you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and i'm all yours
[x] i am self-conscious.
[ ] i cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla
[ ] my dishes get washed more then once a week
[ ] i don't do sports
[x] i HATE to run
[ ] i squeal when i am surprised or angry
[x] i eat dried fruit as a snack
[ ] i love romance novels
TOTAL: 4
[x] Drew Barrymore is so cute
[ ] i dance a lot
[ ] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[ ] i only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] i love to get dressed up
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match
[x] i talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[x] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[ ] price on clothes hardly matters
[ ] i apply lip gloss 50 times a day
TOTAL: 5
[x] i wish i were a model
[ ] i wish i could meet Paris Hilton to slap her --->(slut!)
[ ] i have been something that was slutty on halloween
[ ] i own Uggs
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music
[ ] i pop my collar
[x] i like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ ] horses are beautiful
[x] i'd rather not pay attention in school
TOTAL: 3
[ ] cats are adorable
[ ] i write my own music/song/lyric
[x] i would love to visit Hawaii
[x] Valentine's day is so cute!
[x] white is better then black
[ ] i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[x] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[ ] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[x] i love to read gossip magazines
[x] i love to gossip
TOTAL: 5
[ ] I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[ ] i love Celine dion
[ ] My bubble baths ar e 2 hr long
[ ] my wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[ ] my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
[x] i like kids
[x] diet drinks are the best
[ ] im all about being vegetarian
[x] i refuse to eat at McDonald's
[ ] i check my friendster everyday.
TOTAL: 3
[x] i LOVE life!
[x] i have a lot of jewlery
[ ] claires has cheap jewlery
[ ] my screen names have x's in them -
[ ] either one of my friendster profile has/had <3 in them
[x] i would never want to be the opposite sex
[x] it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[ ] i have more than 3 pillows on my bed
[x] i have a stuffed toy sleeping beside me
[x] i love tidy and clean places
TOTAL: 6
SUM: 6+4+3+4+4+5+3+5+3+6=43
43% GIRL. OMG. that's like not even half!
what the hell
i think i start being more girly
maybe start talking in some high pitch bitchy voice might help?
haha.
Divulged at 11:12 PM
two more days to go!
today's tests were fine =)
have a feeling tomorrow's one will be pretty terrible
jia you everyone!!!it'll be over soon!
Divulged at 5:29 PM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Ai Qing Yoghurt - Lin Jun Jie 