Saturday, March 28, 2009



my impression is sure changing, for the better.
like in a game, the rules change, the game play has also changed


Divulged at 4:46 PM




Thursday, March 26, 2009
quiting school sounds good for now.


almost forgot about school after slacking on mon, tue and wed.
i temporarily put all my school work aside
my mind was all on the stage
our months and months of hardwork was over in an hour
but that hour was good.
we had fullhouse and a waiting list. (:


but it means back to work, which is kinda depressing.
and i hate it how you put me down again and again.


Divulged at 9:44 PM




Friday, March 20, 2009
do you see the light like i do?


dragging and dragging my feet down the tunnel
i can see the light right at the very end
its like a spot, a dot, too tiny to expect for anything
yet its something that causes me to hope for more

so i walk and walk
down the long, wet, dirty tunnel
sweeping the dirty water off my sleeve when it drips from the top
walking more slowly and slowly, losing concentration
losing determination to continue
knees weakening as i take an additional step forward.

unexpectedly, my leg thrust itself into a crack in the flooring
my knee hits the murky water and dig into the mud
my other leg drags forward and with all my might try to pull the other out
instead, my body swings forward with momentum
and my palm smacks right onto the mud stopping my fall

even more slow then ever
i tug my knee out, followed by my feet, my dirtied soles
and finally my filthy hands
straining my back muscles to stand upright

i put one foot forward
staring at the light, breathing deep,
and then continue my dragging.


Divulged at 12:38 AM




Wednesday, March 18, 2009
its just one of those days.


have you ever felt like you disappointed your parents,
like you didn't do your best
you could have done something better but you didn't
probably blaming yourself for not working hard
for not thinking sensibly when you are already all grown up,
or at least you thought you were.
or maybe you felt that you didn't want to let them down, you wanted to show them only your good side, to find out that you didn't and regretted your actions or behavior in the end.
possibly took many things for granted.
or maybe you felt that you had too many things on hand
wished you didn't act tough in the beginning
wished you were smarter, a genius
wished you were more hardworking
wished you had more determination

i wished and wished and wished, am still wishing, think i'll wish forever...



just having too many bad days in a single week.
i'm not as strong as people think i am.


Divulged at 11:10 PM




Monday, March 16, 2009
cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down, sing a sad song just to turn it around.


today's a really bad one for me

first i woke up at 12, my lesson was at 12.
then i decided that since i'll be too late for lesson,
i wanted to go the doc at yih because my cough is still around after 1 week plus plus.
and on the way get an mc
when i reached the uhwc, it says "WE ARE CLOSED" due to relocation.
on top of that i wanted to book my condo's function room before leaving house but because i was going to the doctor that was being relocated, i did not book it!
and i was super early for my 2 o'clock lesson

@)(#*OI_@)$(IOQLAJSKG!OUQP:LKD

i hate today.


Divulged at 4:33 PM




Sunday, March 15, 2009



)@#(*)@(*&$(&#^%$(*#&@)(*!(

MY COUGH IS KILLING ME.


Divulged at 11:04 PM








the moment we obtain happiness
we would always be afraid of losing it - this is an ordinary reaction.

but when this happens, it shows that one is truly happy.


Divulged at 9:12 PM




Wednesday, March 11, 2009
weak


i'm afraid i'm falling into the same trap as i did last sem
everytime after the midsem break i become restless, no motivation to study
if this continues... oh wells. work is piling up, don't remember one day when i didn't think of the work i have to do.
now i understand what the singapore rat race really means.
maybe i didn't JUST know, but it feels like its getting worse.
but i guess i can't complain, i chose this path, this is what i wanted to do, so stick with it.

today in soci of deviance, the lecturer said this...
"if love was a crime, i would rather be the prisoner in your heart"


Divulged at 11:02 PM