Wednesday, August 09, 2006
hollow


i hate returning home
when all i get is the emptiness that is held by the four walls
there's no one there to respond
no one there when you want to share your excitement
even when i come back crying
there's no one noticing

its not that i can't live by myself
but after going home with that empty feeling in the pit of my stomach so many times
i don't like returning home
just thinking that i'll swing open the doors and no one's there
makes me feel like staying out the whole night

its not entirely about responding either
its the presence that i want
it makes me feel safe, comforted
chasing all my fears away
planting warmth in my heart.

guess that's the way my life goes
and will continue being like that.
so there's probably no point in me expressing all these
cause there's probably nothing that can fill that gap.

Divulged at 12:35 AM