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another normal day of school with identical timetable as the last 3 days =( after school today i went down to the canteen to settle some money matters and to buy food as well then went up to company xiaoting to study. at the canteen i could barely see anything white spots were like blocking my vision when i typing message, i couldn't even see what i was typing! 0.0 then walking on the way up i felt like i was gonna faint! in class i couldn't see much i felt like really sick tried doing some math but ended up sleeping cause i couldn't even see what i was writing on the paper! when i woke up there were like people painting outside my class and the paint smell was really suffocating i felt like i couldn't breathe. after that we headed down to the canteen stayed there for awhile, ate then left for my house felt so much better after eating panadol at home. had tuition just now xiaoting complained that she was really scared. sometimes whining and complaining helps relieve that fear in you but then again if you don't do anything about it there's no point in all that complaining. so do something about it. there's no point if you lie to yourself that you are trying too. i don't know how much you are trying but looks like you have to try harder. this is it. promos is here. don't let your parents or anyone else down more impotantly, don't let yourself down. you know i'm really tired i feel like i have nothing to back me up that i'm standing all alone there's no where to lean no where to hide sometimes i feel like just leaning backwards slacken my muscles but somehow i know if i do i will just fall and hit the cold hard floor. i must stand strong only then i can face anything that comes my way we all should.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |