Monday, October 16, 2006
you guys just know who to make me wanna love you.


its been 3 days since openhouse
many emotions have been running through me that day

was supposed to reach there at 8 in the morning
even told everyone not to be late
on that day itself
huiren called me at 8.25 waking me up from my slumberland
within 5 min i grabbed a whole lot of stuff and left the house.
in that cab i felt to guilty, bitter, full of blame and afraid
i'm seriously not someone people can depend on, it convinced me.
i teared on the way there
what kind of a captain am i?
to fail to know the importance of waking up early on that day
if the rehearsals really started at 8.30
i would have missed it
and probably screw up the performance we all put so much effort into.
my heart was thumping as the heavy pac door swung open
and to see all your faces smiling at me
welcoming me
instead of scolding me and reprimand me as i expected
my heart just felt the pang of guilt
and it wouldn't leave.

i cried.
i seriously did.
i cried not because of that guilt
but because i could feel the love you had for me.
that comforting words you all gave
it erased all my fears immediately.
at first it was only the rhythmic girls, they were all there ready and prepard and the lousy me went in incredibly late and unprepared.
after that the guys came in
they not only saw me crying
they saw my fear and my worries
i felt as if they saw through me.

thanks for everything
no matter how the performace went, it was great!
you guys were just fabulous with all that enthusiasm
you people make me proud of being a gymmer in cjc.

both performances ran smoothly
after that i had to leave for my piano lessons
joined them back at taka
met up with a whole lot of them
walked huiren to lido then met up with phua, erwin, amos and perry there.
the rgymmers left with huiren
leaving phua, me, erwin, victor, perry and amos behind.
we went to ps to eat, amos went to meet his friend

after that we went to cathay and we decided to watch a movie at 10 plus
the movie was at 1.50!
what the...
so we sat at ben and jerry's for awhile then left to play pool at paradiz centre
played till 1.30 amos who coincidentally was there as well came to play with us.
after that headed back to cathay for the movie

we watched death note.
it was not bad!
didn't let me down at least
i was damn tired but i didn't fall asleep
and that shows that the movie was good
considering what kind of a sleeper i am!
wahhaha.

left for home at about 4 plus
they came my house to stay over (minus erwin, he didn't watch the movie with us)
we walked all the way from cathay to summerset there and in the end we took a cab
cause nr1 took ages to come
and we were all pretty frustrated about it.
wahahha.

the next day we woke up at 2 plus
and we ate lunch my parents bought and watch HAI LE PUA TOH.
wahahah.
harry potter la.
the first one

today they came me house to watch the second one.
before that, a whole bunch of us went to queenstown to sort of look for class tee and ate at ikea
though like half of us went to burger king instead.
bought two large glass jars and a whole lot of straws
folded loads of stars and hearts
each kind in each jar.
but for who?
why did i feel so strong emotions purging that day?

geuttaen aegi haji motaetjyo neomu eoriseogeotjyo

Divulged at 10:39 PM