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i don't know how or why it became as such neither do i know what to do or how to handle it i just don't get it maybe i'm insentitive or that its simply very difficult to find out what's in your mind or what's in everyone's mind. its impossible to make everyone happy, to do what everyone wants. if i make some people happy, maybe the other group will be unhappy and vice versa. i feel like i'm made to not deserve any respect at all, or to deserve a mind of my own. i feel like i'm always forced into this dilemma after dilemma after dilemma. maybe that's what's life about, facing people and making the right choices. but which is right? the line between things have becomed so blur. problems seems to arise, problem after problem after problem. maybe i'm just not cut out huh. i never felt that i was, since like many years ago. but that was what i always did, escaping. i never liked confronting any problem. i guess no one does. but how come some people just handle it better than me and somehow i always seem to fumble with my actions. everyone always say, it will turn out right, it will be okay. but in the midst of all the sticky and messy situations, everything just feels like its going to break down. everything. i feel like stuck in the mess and unable to breathe properly, i can't think properly and i just can't figure out what was my initial own opinion anymore. i don't know where to vent my frustrations on and it just forms in tears.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |