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watching the gym concert all over again makes me think about what happened in those months i don't know whether to be sad or happy being sad that everything's over that nothing can ever be repeated nothing. even if there was another concert, even if there was another performance it will never be anything like this year's concert, enchantement. to be happy, that everything turned out well and how proud i am of all of you guys seriously, no matter how bad you thought it was no matter what mistakes we all made no matter how untidy we were no matter how unprepared we were in my eyes its perfect its true i sat watching wondering how we managed to accomplish such a task it was one that seemed impossible one week before the concert i felt like giving one week before the concert i felt so useless so dejected just one week before the concert and within that week so many things changed i never had the confidence in myself that i could do it up till now i think luckily i had people around me who could help i don't think i can or will ever arrange anything like that ever again but still i'm so proud watching every move, every stunt, every fall, every smile, every pose, every failure, every success, i just can't leave my eyes off the screen. i just think its so nice so nice that i don't mind watching it again laughing at the -censor- (report of unsuitable material) smiling when we dropped apparatus surprised when i remembered something funny i don't think i'll ever have so many emotions cramped up in a single week ever again that was my last chance.
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author Michele all these while...
February 2011 |