Thursday, October 14, 2010
where have you gone, my ambitious side.


i miss the ambitious part of me
kind of lost it along the way

i remembered how much i put my heart and soul into one goal
and when i could attain that goal
it was such a good feeling
that kind of feeling cannot be fully explained in words
its the kind where you feel so proud of yourself
and overjoyed and excited that it can make you just tear.

if i closed my eyes now i recall the scenes
at the competition arena on the finals
and on the stage after the concert
those two moments still seem so fresh.
its always those times
when i thought our goals will be so difficult to reach
and yet we did, that makes me so emotional.

its that passion and determination that i have lost over the years
i want to find it back.

its happening to my dance passion now
i start to dread the discipline it requires
but whenever i do dance and when there's an audience
my passion renews
but whether strong enough for me to take action in the future
is the question.

will i get to continue something i so love in the future
is dependent on this thing i call passion and how much it burns.

Divulged at 2:49 AM